why can't i just choose the game but why is my heart and brain choosing for me?
why is the game difficulty on extremely hard mode when i am still a newbie in that area..
why is it like i can't decide?
why is all this happening?

i hate myself for been too shy, having no confidence..
i seriously need more yong qi but where can i find it?
why do i keep losing confidence when i have been such a failure over the past few times? why don't i gain more confidence instead.

why do i sounds so emo n sounds so like a loser? seriously i hate myself sometimes!