slept at around 2 am then woke up around 6.45 am. then went to CP n had breakfast at macdonald with jeremy n went TP. reached school very early sia, we 7.50 am take bus no jam and everything, we 8.30 am reach campus then i went library sleep awhile.

school is so tiring la~ luckily the CARC lab at 10 am - 12 pm end so early that i m released at 11.10 am n had my lunch till 11.45 am then went to sleep at library 4th floor to 1 pm then head back to class for more lessons till 6 pm. sian i got so many projects... CARC, DCNK, BITS and CMSK1 project. all week 6 needs to pass up but it's impossible for the 1st 3 course which i mention to had them hand up cuz i still dont have the full knowledge to do so zz.

so yin jie, jian rong, benjamin and chuekman waited for me to be released. however i pang seh benjamin in the end cuz he gotta go to meet someone else. so i and the rest went to pasir ris n had our dinner there.

yinjie told me lots of emo things n makes me feel so emo too la. he dressed so emo n looks so emo the whole day. he everything oso no mood to do, no mood to study n eat all that, haiz.... all the emo-ness of ours is caused by girls lor, if no girls or rather love in the world, i think very less people will get emo. but eventually love is oso something that makes the world looks so beautiful. so love can be both cons and pros, depend on how we take our path.

so after all those emo talks we all went home, took bus 109 with chuekman, jian rong n tomorrow we decide to take bus 109 n 15 to school le since bus 27 is always jam at the 1st exit at TPE zzz. probably it's much faster. and now i feel so freaking tired, think i m going to sleep le ba.

finally got most of the old emo english songs that i want. thanks to richmond for downloading n sending to me LOL. i still love this song most.

Verse One

We do almost everything
That lovers do
And that why's it's hard
Just to be friends with you
And everytime your heart is broken
By the fool I want you to know
That it hurts me too
It's hard to wipe your tears away
Knowing you should be with me, tell me

Chorus:

Why, why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than what we are
And tell me why
Everytime I find someone that I like
We always end up being just friends

Verse 2

I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love
Cause it could mean losing you
But am I a fool girl not to say
If I'm always scared I'll lose you anyway
Somehow someway I've got to choose
Got to choose no matter if it's win or lose

(repeat chorus)

Bridge: I don't want to be like your brother
I don't want to be your best friend
I only want to be your lover
When will this end?
If I told you that I want to be in your life?
If you could be the woman in mine

98 Degrees - Why are we still friends?

You know I'd fight for you
But how I can fight someone who isn't even there

So don't doubt me n think that i dont listen to any english songs, i do but it's really a few, i think around 10 - 20 english songs only, n only old english songs :)

stupid lessons so freaking early n long! 9 pm - 6 pm. with 2 hours break altogether.

i fall asleep at around 5 am ++ lor n woke up at around 7am, so basically i slept less than 2 hours before going to school. i was like so tired during lectures n etc. but well i still can absorb what the lecturers were teaching. n during 2nd hour of break i went library 4th floor to sleep at the nice red sofa n sheng biao came over n woke me up n i went for lessons.

n after school around 6 pm, i went home by myself zz. i reached home around 8.05 pm. all thanks to bus 27 for keep getting full during peak hours n TPE having a jam -.- i was like getting impatient n pissed at the bus. i managed to get into bus 27 on the 4th bus arrived lol.

so when i went home, i was like so freaking hungry n went to had my dinner immediately. then i went online n wrote an email feedback to complain about bus 27 LOL. i told them how sucks it was at morning peak hours n dinner time peak hours. n it really sucks if u r me when all yr time table starts at 9 am where i need to get bus 27 during the peak hours n ends at 4 - 6 pm daily which oso is peak hours zzz. n tml i going to study till 6 pm oso, so sianz. i hate labour day totally, it might give me holiday on thursday. but susposedly i dont have lessons on friday, n labour day caused me to have make up lessons on friday 9 am - 12 pm zzz. i want to have long weekends one la instead of stupid holiday at thursday then 2 days of weekend -.-

27/04

ok slept till like 3 pm n i told myself not to sleep any longer before i cant sleep at night. so i was just like doing almost nothing beside watching TV, staying online n updating my valve steam n played a round of CS 1.6

then around 6 pm haoru called me n ask me to go town n i was like ok. then around 6.30 pm he told me to leave my house cuz he's driving to pick me up n i was like "OMG" since my mom just cooked my portion of dinner, so i was like chionging to eat finish my dinner in like 3 minutes rofl. then i quickly rush downstairs to find haoru.

then haoru drived me to CP to meet the rest. most of them i dont know since it's haoru batch friends, only manfred i can remember who is him n it's manfred birthday. however there's arian to pei me la so there's like 6 of us squeezing on haoru car lol. then haoru drived us to somerset.

we were walking around DFS, duty free shops. i remember the first time i went to was like with ju xian n duty free shops are susposing to be cheaper however those stuffs are so expensive because all the stuffs there are branded like gucci, louis vuition n etc.. then we walk n walk till lido n then we all eat our dinner. well i had 2 dinner because haoru ask me to pei him eat pastamania -.- then after that we went cineleisure n slack n walk around then saykiat come to meet us.

after that saykiat, haoru, me n arian was leaving, haoru drived me to ju xian house while they going to hougang 684 to have supper since i m meeting ju xian, jordon n shengkai to slack at his house there to drink starbuck. then me n ju xian were waiting for like at least 40 minutes for the other 2 dumbo to come at the playground beside his apartment playing the swings. after that they finally arrived at 10.30 pm n then we went inside to his apartment downstair to slack on the tables like we did a few months ago.

then the security guard chased us out LOL because an apartment complains about us, but i dont know why n we didnt talk so loud, probably singaporeans love complaining ba, abit oso wan complain rofl. then we went outside to the playground to slack awhile more then cabbed home around 11.45 pm.

went home n took a bath then was doing some debugging stuffs for cabalsea -.- i managed to remove xtrap within 3 minutes by nopping the calls for XTrap, asked my german friend what can i do to remove the check that if Xtrap is running n he teaches me alot of stuff. like putting breakpoints at which shit. however when my another friend went online n know stuffs about xtrap more, he tells me that there's a server check like gameguard to communicate with each other to see if xtrap is running. so i m like "well it sucks" cuz i need to emulate the packets sent by xtrap n i dont have the knowledge to do so yet since i need to unpack Xtrap files n then debug more -.- then i play around with breakpoints on packet sending function. think i going to learn how to trace encryption function n then learn how to decrypt it next time when i m free.

n well after debugging for like hours, it's finally 3.22 am + now n i going to sleep now. i gotta wake up in like 3 hours + time for school later -.- stupid lecture starting at 9 am from monday to thursday. n i hate it that labour day is on thursday because i have make up lessons then on friday for CMaths2 currently, if there's no labour day i will then have a long weekend since my friday is a lesson-free schedule zzz.

夜里传来雨的声音
轻轻拨动心的旋律
情不自禁想起你
那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛
爱情需要一些呼吸
偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系
任你自由的来去
从此想念你只能放在我心里
你还爱我吗
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗
好久没有你的消息
心里还惦记着你
在这冷冷的夜里
感觉那么的熟悉
好想再见你想听听你的声音
感情的路总让人好无助
我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福
oh
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
这是我唯一的牵挂
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你
你还爱我吗

ok just cabbed home with ju xian from river valley -.-

just now went town around 4 pm with haoru, kam hong, shengkai n jordon to meet the rest. haoru drived us. then at plaza sing we meet up with karsan, kian guan, ju xian, saykiat. we then went to watch movie, however kam hong, haoru n jordon didnt catch with us. the 9 of us (because saykiat's girl-friend oso there) n we were watching Funny Games US. it's freaking lame + boring tell us the stupid life of theirs n how they "manage themself" when they got caught up by two sadists. most of us n many audiences left before watching finish the show, only me, kian guan n sheng biao n one more guy i donoe who nv left. we watch finish the whole show n it's stupid dumb + boring because everyone dies n the sadists prey on another family. n the movie is long n very very very detailed till u can see a crying scene or a very lame scene or a driving scene or a sitting scene for 1 min ++ per scene n the camera man i think very song, no need to move around. there's no ambience in the movie totally as there's no music played to make our feeling goes strong.

so after the movie, the left over us + karsan went to take bus to cyrus at river valley road to meet others who left first during the movie. we reach there n i didnt do anything but rather just eat my dinner n then talk talk awhile with the rest. then today stupid ju xian touch my phone n anyhow call someone zzz, yesterday is xavier today is u, tomorrow who will be the next to touch my phone n call her!!!!!!!!! then me n ju xian cabbed home. i dont wan to go any pub to get myself drunk. so well i think i going to bath now.

doing nothing at home, except chatting with yin jie, kamhong over msn. still waiting for haoru to drive us to town or wad, donoe when it will be. so now i m very sianz la. zzz. donoe go town do wad oso. watched almost all the nice movies, i now only want to watch definite, maybe n the hottie n the nottie.

n now i have been listening to yang cheng lin - 只想爱你 for like 2 hours lol. i never get sick of it, i think overall i have hear it consistently for like 200 hours le LOL. her sound is always so sweet, i love the lyrics of 只想爱你.

只想爱你~
当我和你走在一起就已经决定 :)
不看不听不问也不会放弃 (PERSERVANCE!)
是你让我了解自己 :) :)
可以为爱那麽坚定 :) :)
只想爱你~
好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你 (I WISH TOO)
我知道我偶尔有一点任性 :(
不管你做任何决定 :)
究竟爱我还是逃避 :( :(
sorry 我还是不会放弃爱你~ (PERSERVANCE!!!!!!)

haha maybe that's how i feel towards the girl i currently like, even though she's that hard to get along with, but i still keep trying n trying even though now i sms her very less zzz.. n i still dont have the courage to do many things....

25/04

didnt have school. so i woke up around 12 pm. then went CP to do stuffs, now i m bankrupt le haha. took me so long at CP bank to do stuffs. then train all the way to dover to SP to meet xavier, kian guan n zhong kai. mat joined us too, reached SP around 3pm. we wanted to go to SP guildhouse to play bowling n pool one. however me n mat n kg were wearing slippers n then we can't go in like kian guan said. so well we didnt went there n we went donoe another place to play pool. played a few rounds only nia then sibei sian liao cuz the cue siao siao one HAHAA. SP is very budget la, no chalk, only one cue for us zzz. n while walking into school, mat sibei di siao keep di siao random people lor, haha. then me n mat were like always missing in that huge school -.- n keep asking people for directions rofl.

recieved some messages from my care person saying that i didnt went for the DCNK lectures n i m like "???????" cuz i did went, i even waited for 5 hours for the break n slept, n went cinema to catch superhero movie with mat n jeremy. i got go sia he say i nv go n i did mark my attendance zzz. so my careperson was like so good to reply me that he will check for me n ask me to enjoy my holidays LOL. well just hope that he can mark me that i attend it if not i really wasted like 6 hours of waiting + lecture for a absence lesson -.-

then after pool i n zhongkai went KFC to eat first, n the few others follow up after the play finish pool around 4.30 pm, then after KFC we meet up karsan n fat rich, we trained to bugis n bought movie tickets n then walk walk then went arcade till 7.30 pm. we watching doomsday, n i already watched it liao zzz. however karsan treated me la, if not i wont go watch LOL cuz it's freaking lame movie + i watched it le.

after movie we all train back around 9.30 pm. then i n karsan slack at CP while waiting for shengkai then we went to vari nice to eat our lunch then went home. reached home around 12.30 am. n then play a few rounds of dota n was chatting with yin jie la, he at there emo emo lol. n i dont wan to download n install the stupid alice programming shit on my laptop la, my laptop first harddisk no space liao (even though my another 80 gb harddisk n a 120 gb external harddisk isnt used) but i dont install shits program on my laptop. stupid alice program that is more like an macro instead of programming, because u just click click click click for it to do wad, u arent really writing your own code. but well that's a fundamental skill to learn java, C# n C++ so wad can i do? n even i install i doubt i will bring my laptop to school cuz it's heavy n i m lazy to bring lol.

so now i m going to sleep now, now got 2 ppl sibei di siao siao la, at msn keep invite me to chat when i dont wan to, stupid shengkai i dont wan hear yr sound la, i wan hear my songs LOL. bye i m off to sleep. sibei tired le.

你看起来不太开心谁困扰了你
让你的眼神看来有些悲哀
有多严重你和他之间
到了不可收拾的局面了吗
我看起来也不太好我当然知道
因为你的表情让我很心疼
你不了解我和你之间
只是爱上了不爱我却又在乎(他)的人
只是爱上了不爱我却又在乎(他)的人
应该挑拨你和他我想这是最好的时机
只是当你哭着说你还爱他不忍离开他
我竟努力扮演你和他之间的和事佬
应该劝你离开他可是我怎么也做不到
因为当你笑着说我最好了是你知心朋友
我不敢也没勇气告诉你别把我当朋友
想做你的情人想做你的情人 oh....

5566 - 挑拨

那一年默默无言
只能选择离开
无邪的笑容已经不再精彩
你害怕结局所以拼命伤害
说是我挡住你的美好未来你坚决不希望我等待
我便默默的让你走开
如今你受了伤回来
叫我如何接受这安排我难过的是放弃你放弃爱
放弃的梦被打碎忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快我难过的是忘了你忘了爱
尽全力忘记我们真心相爱
也忘了告诉你
失去的不能重来

5566 - 我难过

i only like 5566 first album haha. old songs, i remember these songs was release when i was sec 1, early sec 1. this 2 songs give me a very nostalgic feeling. i remember 我难过 was played during my sec 1 orientation, n a class was singing this song. then one guy go upstage n give flowers haha. n that time is also the time i like a girl so much. haha but it's the past n i dont feel anything for her now.

i only like 2 girls since my secondary life till now, n i remember that when this song was played, she was sitting beside me, okay she's my councillor for sec 1 orientation camp hahaha. n she n me were paying attention listening to the song, i remember she likes chinese song like i do too cuz i asked her before. but well i didnt contact her for years n thinking back to the olden days from the very beginning of my secondary life really gives me that nostalgic feeling. i really enjoy my sec 1 and 2 life, problem arises n the most growing up stage of me n my friends. the bonds of us is strong, n we faced many obstacles.

i even remember that during sec 1 n sec 2, during exam when we have our seats arranged, xie chao, me, jeremy, chuekman, jingyuan, yinjie, weilin will always seat behind. then we always play like mad n then start beating each other, n i m always the one that got bullied. n that period i remember we dislike jian rong LOL, cuz he's a bao tou kia la HAHAHA. everything we do he bao tou to mr raffi LOL, i still remember he chairman when we sec 1. but since sec 2, jian rong became one of us n mr raffi keep saying about his changes i remember LOL. he join us to play like madness n he never bao tou us le, like when got fights in class he never bao tou, arbo something do wrong also never bao tou. he also seat behind us n i remember that there's a day that we playing soccer in class. then jeremy was doing heading n then it hit the fan n made the fan spoil, then we all very brother, we all share the money together to pay for the fan. haha. n i like the few of us, when one of us got punished, no matter if it's one fault, or not our fault, when mr raffi want to knows the truth n no one owe up, mr raffi will either push the blame to us, if not he threaten the whole class n jeremy, me, chuekman, xie chao, wei lin, yin jie will always stand up n take the blame even if it's our or not our fault. we are really united. i miss that period very much haha. i still remember that mr raffi oso crap with us about feng shui LOL, cuz yinjie n xie chao keep talking about feng shui cuz raffi want to change our seats n we dont wan LOL.

n sec 1 i remember i hate jason goh very much, fought with him in school many times, quarrel with him many times, even we same primary school but i dislike him since primary school, i remember i made him cried during i p6 because he was like snatching my friend's basketball for no reason n i wanted to snatch back n i accidentally broke his nail n he start crying that his mom would found out that he stay back after school n will kanna whack n i was at there LOL with another friend. but since sec 1 he become very bad, very defiance towards teacher. n still make valentino smoke n join gangs, then when valentino n jason found out they join gang by raffi, i remember our class were like called up altogether n the 2 of them standing infront of class, forced by raffi he ask every of us go infront of them to tell them that "i hate you" something LOL, n i remember many girls cried when they are forced to do that. but well i was like "i hate you lol" n jeremy, xie chao nv say n mr raffi was very angry.

i still remember during sec 1 we have kwok jia jun, we called him air pork haha, because that period there's a famous ba kua store call air pork n it was on commercial, then he's a cry baby. when we keep calling him air pork he will cry. then he very jia lat la, make him abit cry le, then very act on first day orientation LOL, then we always sabotage in voting every time, i remember when votes come we all like "JIA JUN JIA JUN JIA JUN..." n it's really lol when teachers ask us to raise our hand, our whole class raise up. then one time he emo till cry n say "not fair one we always sabo him", that was during the national day model participation when eunice n jia jun were selected. however i another guy tio sabotage one la, when they need more participants i remember after jia jun, i m the next name that's been called "ken yong ken yong ken yong..." n i was like "NOOOOOOOOOO!" so i really miss the old days la, especially when we in sec 1 n 2.

i like the days in sec 1 n 2 that we daily will stay back after school n play soccer, basketball, lion dance, walk around the school, playing catch around school, hide and seek, stay back to slack at class, designing class for events. those days were very fun n happy la, really such like a carefree life haha. we did many lame things, especially the few of us, me, jeremy, chuekman, xie chao, yin jie, we can lame till we stay back after school n edit the songs lyrics of 5566 - shou hou LOL. then we named ourself after 5566 n that's really funny la, i remember i was given the name xie zhi, xie chao was called xiao dao LOL n he should be da dao instead. those olden days think back we seems very childish n lame la, but really it's the most happy n enjoyable days of my life i think. not like now everything is so like standaralised. everyone have their own life n own principle for living, in the past we have common things to do n share haha. everything changed when we went sec 3, our class was mixed n some friends that we had strong bonds with went to different class. xie chao promoted to express still haha. then we had also one of the largest school conflicts in school between the 2 class n friends, we sec 2 n 1 so unite n we fought each other over me n yip chun problem.

thinking back at sec 3 i regret for not preventing the fight from been occur la, haha n i remember when the problem arises, i was so angry at sec 3c, (another class) when i leave their class i use my fist n punch their backdoor till there's a hole on their backdoor. rofl. i think if i didnt release my anger at the door but release at yip chun he might went hospital with his bone break or what. n almost the whole sec 3 we didnt communicate with another class n having cold war till sec 3 end like that. haha but at least now in TP most of us still in same school. but most of us changed, including me i think haha.

school today is boring. i go for all lectures, i was like very tired. thanks to sleeping for just 3 hours too ROFL. so i m that tired when it comes to lectures, especially the PRSP lecture sucks. the teacher is been too soft, no using mic n he's bored n presentation n communication skills isnt good either. and i was like "PLZ PLZ PLZ END FASTER N BREAK FOR ME PLZ!!!" i even felt asleep infront of my careperson during APEL tutorial when he's discussing with my class about the participation of donoe wad TP fund event. my class were like enthu to think of idea n i was like busying sleeping n lying down. the careperson didnt even care about me rofl n carried on discussing with friends. then on the last period which is the CMaths1, i was like PLZ END FAST SO I CAN GET HOME N REST! n in the class instead of listening to the lecturer nags n teaches us, i read the book myself n figured out how to calculate decimal to binaries n so i was like "ok i going to finish wad the lecturer will ask us to do n get into sleep" n so i did haha.

during break, i think it's the heaven. during lectures/lab/tutorials is a suffering for me. it's BORED n nothing to keep me awake. however during break it's exactly heaven la, especially when my secondary friends are all with me during breaks. n tomorrow i going to have 5 hours break, from 11 - 4 pm, who wan to pei me? zzz.. 3 lectures, 9 - 11, then 4 - 5. maybe i should just pon the 4 - 5pm lecture since teacher dont mark attendance.. but i like the course too n i like the teacher, so most likely no ba but enjoy my heaven alone lor.. sianz think i can emo liao haha. maybe i should go to pool n start losing money -.- so if anyone of u having break during 11 - 4 pm please contact me by calling me :(

2 more months to my birthday zzz, n the day on my birthday is oso the first day of TP term break ends and reopen, zzz! so suay sia. my whole primary to secondary life my birthday is always a holiday zzz, first time like this till now i studied lol. I LOVE BREAKS! <3 BREAKS! BUT ONLY HAVING BREAK WITH FRIEND N THE 5 HOURS IS WAY TOO LONG BREAK FOR ME N NO ONE PEI ME FROM 2 - 4 PM SO I THINK I CAN SAY I HATE BREAK FOR TML! n <3 friday! no lessons at all for friday hahaha. n i just got back my CPU just now. finally my power supply is fixed :D

ex-BTH people / BTH people are always a ljl, always lend money then money not back. dont wan to mention name la... many ljls la, that's it. totally pissed when i think, all no money automatically go take from me, then i lend liao wont automatically return then pray i forget or what one. so now i going to start chasing money liao. no more owing for money for many ljls, i dont wan to be scammed anymore n i not going to trust most of them easily. u know who u r, n once again that someone wan to scam me again -.-" that pisses me, a leopard will not change its spot. he scammed me once n now i give him a chance again to trust him so he comes take advantages of it, now i m not going to just be there doing nothing but chase back all my money.

jordon still owe me the graphic card $150. -> haiz
eben still owe me the 700m which is $450. -> haiz
saykiat still owe me $$$ oso. -> ya ah fat can be trusted though n very automatically sometimes so i wont worried so much

still got many rest la, dont wan to say name liao. lend money = problems la

so easy to lend my money out to friends
so hard to get back my money from them
so easy for them to automatically find me to lend money
so hard for them to automatically return me my money
so easy for my balance to keep decreasing from lending money
so hard for my balance to goes up by taking back my money
so easy for them to have naive thinking that money is easy to earn for them
so hard for me to think and plan how do i earn money instead of dreaming only
easy outgoing of money n hard incoming of money n i getting abit stress over it!

-wrote by sky (haha i ownself write this poem one la, i just write it randomly, giving my thoughs/feelings/etc shits)


and xie chao last week called me automatically to tell me he going to return me my $100 le, makes me so happy. but now he said tuesday return me but i think he n me forget le, think next few days i call him ba.

shengkai also like my situation la, money always out, money always not back in. very zzz. stop lending money from me u all fkers, cuz i not going to lend most of u. i lend lend lend till my bank now no $$ liao, think left less than 1k to use for myself zzz. n now my parents never even give me daily allowance so i really poor liao la!!!!!!!!!!! stress LOL.

n today my lessons sucks. basic IT security teaching history of the past internet how it comes n how the encryption in the past is like. zzz.. -.- n other lectures are kinda bored as well. n i thought this week has no lab so i didnt go for 2 of my lab course which today have, zzz... 1 more time absence = GGed -.- only a Pass grade most, n i aim high la. sian. n then i almost pon a tutorial oso, i thought oso dont have, luckily i follow my classmates after leaving classroom, so we got communication shits tutorials n it's kinda boring too. I ONLY WAN TO LEARN MY BITS, CARC, DCNK la, not like the BITS shit history ok? i going sleep now, so freaking tired, this few days or almost a week since friday i been sleeping like 2 - 5 hours daily. so today i going to sleep more!

n wow www.google.com.sg just changed their logo rofl.

how can i be a hongster when i cant remove the girl that is current in my heart! so what should i do zzz...? maybe to wait longer, time tells everything maybe.

等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i
我不能只是be your friend
i just can't be your friend

我猜你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i
我不能只是be your friend
i just can't be your friend

我不能只是做你的朋友

that's currently what i m feeling

first day of school is boring. all the lectures are just introduction n brief sample of what are we going to learn. so the lectures all ends like in 35 - 45 mins instead of full hour. it's really boring n 1st week good to have all tutorials n labs cancelled. so instead of 6 pm i can went home at 2 pm lol. later is a boring one since i have lectures at 9am - 10 am then 5 hours break till 3 pm - 4 pm another lecture. i like my Data Communication and Networking and Basic IT Security teacher la, actually is the same teacher he teach us the 2 subjects la. he very humourous la, n friendly oso, makes his lesson very interesting. however the 2 other female teaching who teaching me CMaths2 and Computer Architecture isnt that interesting ba. but still i like computer architecture subject too, getting me into depther of ASM knowledge, so cool O.O

then after school cabbed home with jeremy, took my CPU receipt n wanted to went sim lim square to take my CPU back. but the guy then reply my sms telling me that it's not ready yet since the suppliers havent send him back the power supply zzz.. sian sian.

then me n jeremy were like half way to sim lim square so we eventually changed our destination to bugis lor. i n jeremy went to guan yin temple to pray cuz jeremy said he's feeling bad luck for these days so i pei him haha. then we went to shop awhile, then we trained to vivo city to slack n walk walk n jeremy want to have lunch at there. so after slacking at vivo city till 5.30 pm like that, we trained to plaza sing n wanted to buy our tickets for superhero movies, then the counter say not for public zzz. stupid m1 explorer telling me that there's 7.15 pm show which isnt open to public zzz. so we didnt watch movie n went home after that -.-

20/04

around 12 am went for my dinner with haoru, i made him wait so long for me at my house downstair cuz i was playing dota LOL. felt so sorry for him la so i gave him $10 for car oil fee LOL.

then he drive me to hougang 684 for dinner to join up with the others for supper n my dinner lol. so after that, many went home except for me, haoru, ziliang n kamhong. haoru drive us to pasir ris downtown east there to catch midnight movie at cathay. we watched doomsday n the movie is like -.- we dont understand many parts of the movie, n it's kinda lame when the area is all punks then another area is like the ancient war knights n so on lol. then they go anywhere they tio caught up LOL, n in the end the world is all plagued by a virus n it's the end of the world haha. but i love the actions la, those brutal killings is nice, like the body got exploded when the tank roll over one of the punk n heads got chopped off are funny too haha, probably i m a bit psycho.

n we missed like 20 mins of the movie, the movie started at 2.10am n we went in at around 2.30am sia lol. so after the movie it's like 4.30 n haoru drived us to hougang donoe where la, zi liang house there to eat supper, i didnt eat though. then zi liang been gay-ed to tell me about naruto comics story, n he's like "CONTINUE NEXT SATURDAY BECAUSE MANGA THIS WEEK NOT RELEASE, I NEXT FRIDAY READ LIAO I TELL U ON SATURDAY" -.-

so went home n then play dota with zi liang for a round n went to sleep at around 9.30 am.

then woke up at 2.30 pm, called haoru n kian guan to ask them go vivo to meet richmond, xavier, shengkai n karsan to watch 4.30 pm movie. i think i 1 day watch 2 movie lor, 1 at midnight 1 at afternoon haha. actually we wanted to watch doomsday at first but already watched during midnight, so we watched streets king. streets king is nice sia, the evil plot is so godly n the main character police is always put into a dilemma situation. the story is very good n the ending n story is very unexpected. the movie very long sia, a few times i thought wan end liao but actually it still didnt end there but the story carries on for the main character to know more about the truth happening. n the main character cop is so ke lian, donoe which group of cop is helping him or sabotaging him.

so after movie it was around 6.30 pm n we went to food republic n had our dinner. then after that we trained back to hougang cuz haoru wanted to take his car n drive me, jordon, richmond n karsan to serangoon garden to slack at coffee bean. so we slacked till 9.10 pm like that n we went to lan shop n played a round of dota n eventually my team make up of brian, me n jordon won haoru, richmond n karsan. then haoru was like punching me lor, he sore loser one haha cuz his stealth assasin got pwned by my nerubian weaver when i 1 v 1 lane with him, then he cant even farm or do shit hahaha. so he's like been a loser tell me that "come my lane n kill me one more time i quit la" then i like "ok la i go other lane farm n kill yr teammate la" lol. then he keep scold me for farming on him when he's like wan to kill me but he's too nub to kill me hahaha.

so after that we went home n i played a round of dota again n we were like owning n bad-mannered an opponent cuz yong chuan tell me the opponent very cocky LOL. n i keep chat over msn till 2 am lor sia, n i think time for me to sleep! later still have school at 9 pm n i going to wake up at 6.30 am lol.. sian later the lesson only got 2 breaks, at 12 pm n 2 pm n then i break without any secondary friends with me i think so since the rest at lesson during that time zzz n my lesson ends at 6 pm zzz..! make me have no time to take back my CPU from sim lim square lor sian sian.

18/4

around 545 pm i woke up, n i total took around just 50 mins of nap. then i was like prepare to go out to CP to meet the rest. then we trained to dhoby ghaut n slack awhile there at arcade and PC Bunk then we went to plaza sing to have our dinner.

after dinner we went to cathay to watch our movie, the forbidden kingdom. mathew bought it for us but in the end benjamin n him didnt watch because of jordon, they let their tickets to jordon n his victoria la so it's abit sad for them lol. n mathew bought like 20 tickets altogether.

at the threater we were sitting like at the 1st n 2nd row, n i sat at 1st row left seats n so i didnt really enjoy the movie that much. however the movie was nice, funny n packed with lots of action. i like the kungfu the jet-li n jackie chan performed, n the story is short n simple. everything is like perfectly done except that it's strange that why jet-li, jackie chan n the evils know how to speak english without telling us how they eventually learn english during that period of time haha. the golden sparrow girl is so beautiful sia like zi liang told me at afternoon before i took a nap haha, the look of her can mesmerise quite many of us haha.

so after the movie we went to long john silver at plaza sing since some people want to have their dinner / supper. after that we took bus 147 to serangoon garden outside n walked into serangoon garden n play lan for the whole midnight. we were playing dota n CS, i think the most fun part is still playing CS la, most of our nick were like bad-mannered nick n vulgar n quite similiar, then we were like screening where the enemies are located n shoot through wall to get them hahaha n we were like very owning versus-ing the others at online. hmmmmm why do STEAM ban my account for hacking when i didnt even use my steam account for like years, if not i think i m going to play CS at home whenever i m bored haha. now i cant play VAC protected servers n it really sucks -.- since most of the game i couldnt join.

so now i m going to sleep, i only slept like 2 hours 10 mins like that total for this almost 40 hours. i m really tired but i still need to wait for my hair to dry! think i can sleep up to 12 hours later haha.

i slept for like 1 hour 30 mins till 6.30 am n i woke up to prepare to go to school. so went out around 7.15 am to have my breakfast at CP macdonald with jr n gaohui. after our breakfast, jr realised that his orientation starts at 10 am haha so he went to deon house n me n gaohui too bus 27 n 15 to reach school, this time we reached n just on time to school, not like the 1st day where both of us were late for 1 hour haha. probably we were delayed too much cuz of us taking bus 27 n changing to 23 at interchange because didnt knew 15 can get to TP too haha.

so today i went orientation, n too abit emo at lecture room. luckily they didnt have time to do cheers if not i going to be insane again. then we went to computer lab to listen to a guy speech teaching us how to use our TP sites to check for exams, events and timetable. n finally our care person hand out our portfolio n matrice card so that i can skip immediately after that speech haha. found out that TP computer sucks because it's still P4, and the monitor is still those fat style one, n worst is that it has admin privilege so we can abuse it :D

my timetable isnt that bad afterall... i m like almost fully packed on monday - thursday, everyday start at 9 am, unless day with apel but they didnt mention when we are going to have it, it will be 8 am. so it's like monday n tuesday i going to stay at school from 9am - 6pm, n wednesday i think to 4pm n thursday to 5pm. so it's abit zzz... but the best thing is that friday - sunday i dont need to go to school la, hahaha meaning my weekend starts on friday! n heard from the guy who is doing the speech that we dont have exam for our 2.2 onwards, but we will have lotsa projects going on n it's like keep coming n coming n i m like OMG because i hate projects seriously.

so after the stupid speech, so after the speech n i got my shits, they asked us to change to the TP IT school shirt for the regetta n then i was like "ok" n then head out immediately n ran away instead of changing haha. then went to safra to find mathew n ben n they are playing billard while i m at there sleeping n slacking i think. then jianrong, deon, shengkai n richmond joined us and we went to the downstair donoe wad cafe n i had chicken chop for my lunch, the food there isnt good but it taste abit sucks.

n now i m going to sleep, later 5.30 pm still need to wake up to meet up with the others at CP at 6 pm, to catch the forbidden kingdom at cathay, 7 pm show most probably. hope i dont felt asleep at there haha.

totally bored staying at home chatting online n playing dota. later still need to go to school orientation to take matriculation card n timetable i think. meeting up with jian rong at CP 7.30am later to have our breakfast then going to school together. not sure if gao hui will turn up anot. n hope that jian rong will eventually give me a wake up call on 6.30am cuz i dont have any alarm clock zzz.

hope that later the orientation will be much more fun n dont be like wednesday -.- n thinking of skipping after lunch but must take my things first haha, if not i going for the regetta n go home at 6.30 pm. the sad part about mechantronics one is until 10 pm haha, n mine is 9 am - 630 pm.

i think i know why my laptop keep crash le, it's the stupid window media player causing it if i m not wrong, cuz i always run my song n then when i minimize it it become a mini-window player n it will crash me, however if it never turns into mini one i wont get crashed, probably some compatible issue with either ACER programs, if not some of my drivers if not vista -.- but i know that now both ACER and vista sucks. well going to sleep soon le, waiting for my hair to dry -.-

BACK FROM TP ORIENTATION, i skipped the overnight camp because the orientation is already too bored. i have no mood in participating in any of their cheers or mass dance because it's really RETARD + lame + the mindset of those mentor and my classmate i think still in sec 1 sia.

i dont like my classmates so i have been almost anti-social la, they all so enthu and retard sia, especially a guy behind me whose sound is almost or totally like wei jie sound, i hear him talk i think of wei jie sia lol. but then the guy is the sibei enthu guy in our class, not like our wei jie so quiet quiet one haha. n i hate enthu people, because they sucks.

so i was getting mad boring at the whole orientation n especially the mass dance, n i was keep sms-ing all my friends in TP too, they all also feel kan sian and retard n enthu sia the people around us, we were like -.- and want to leave asap. n the worst thing in my class is none of the students is female, wow looks like soon or later i going to be gay hahaha. my course only got 2 girls anyway, but none in my class.

n the chief mentor of mine sucks la, he from nchs year 1988 batch if i m not wrong, he sibei guai lian sia. i wear animal shirt, the elmo shirt from topman cuz kamhong tell me it look nice on me, the shawn keep calling me "the elmo shirt guy" like got a few times ZZZ.. sibei guai lian sia. the afternoon lunch box sucks anyway, no nice food LOL. so i almost died there due to boredness and the enthu-ness aura around me sia. i was going like almost crazy by the enthu-ness at the mass dance, i wanted to leave there asap so NO WAY I M GOING TO THE STUPID ORIENTATION THING FOR TOMORROW! n the dumb gao hui still wan go, he buey sian sia we all dont plan to go le but go on friday to take the cards all that only lol.

i hao bu rong yi cai neng lie to my mentor that i feeling abit headache n have a little urge to vomit so i wan to go home without staying, so no way i going back to the orientation tomorrow! friday maybe go there then take things liao all that then just like that go home woot arbo go bedok reservoir with the retard orientation n have intergames with other school people hahaha.

n seriously when the director keep saying about the opportunity they can give us gives me an urge to chiong my study to top 5% and get distinctions like my bro which is in NS now. then go NUS like him n study business course hahaha. i wan to take part in red-hat courses la, i wan to take part in oso white-hat courses oso, hope they give me the opportunity to do that haha.

n this song on my blog i think it will really sounds familiar for the 3 scammers as i sang to them that time - ju xian, shengkai n xavier. u 3 sucks. i will nv forget the incident during our cab ride back home from ECP.

14/04

went to suntec city to meet jordon n ju xian n xavier with shengkai. went there play awhile of arcade then haoru n kamhong joined us, they wanted to had dinner with us but we didnt eat kuishin-bo so they went home n they feel kanna scammed lol...

then we went to dhoby ghaut to have our dinner at sakae sushi. after that we went back home.

15/04

went to hougang with shengkai, susposedly we are going to get a hair cut at J&J, but there are too much people le, around 10 people so we didnt cut n we took bus 161 again to hougang station n took mrt to dhoby ghaut. stayed at bunk with the maple nerds awhile then jordon, ju xian, me n shengkai went PS to have our dinner at the food court. then me n shengkai went to B1 swatch shop to get my watch, n i bought a watch for $239 lol. wanted to buy a shoe too but no ppl wan pei me so end up the 4 of us then cab back home.

then just now went to have supper at changi with haoru, kamhong n darren. just back not long ago. now time to go to bath n prepare for tomorrow stupid orientation camp -.- need to wake up n meet gao hui around 7 am to take bus together lol. these few days keep going town abit sian, nothing much to do. n now the stupid shengkai keep telling me stuffs which i dont wan to hear about, i still think the 3 of them are scammers. they made me make a big regret in my life.

just came back from simlim square, the guy tell me my power supply fuse is probably broken down just like i had expected after troubleshooting a few times, he tried his own power supply n it works, $188 for a lousy power supply that died in like less than 20 days n haoru that time keep telling me is good haha! i use 2 weeks + only then like that le lol. now i have no CPU to use for 1 week like that, the guy sent in my whole CPU for repair under warranty...

n now i m so boring... nowhere to go and dont know what should i do, i dont feel like playing any games nor touching my ps3. however i m free to talk craps, lame with u, go out now, so if u r interested please call my hp or nudge me in msn. 2 more days n it's time for TP orientation, i dont wan to stay overnight la zzz. stupid IT school need to stay overnight -.- n i just want to school open n start studying. n now i still need to get myself a new watch, a new shoe. n maybe more shirt n shorts if can.

13/04



went out with hr, kamhong, jordon, karsan to town. we walk around abit n had our dinner at cineleisure food court then went skatepark wait for saykiat, waited for him for around 1 hour lor zzz. he wanted to go surrender so we go pei him. surrender items so expensive and saykiat at there siao one keep ask me go buy a pant that cost like $350 sia, he's mad n i didnt buy though because $350 i can buy almost 1/3 of a CPU rofl. then he go buy himself a A4 file bag which cost $150 like that -.- n i think it's really dumb to buy such an expensive stuffs because when u get rob, i bet the robber would wan u to strip all yr clothes n give them lol.

then we went to wisma after that n made a new spectacle, it costs me $480 rofl. n the eye doctor seems have a hard time inspecting my eyesight, it took him like almost an hour to done with the checkings n my eyes during the checks were already @_@ n abit of headache when he keep ask n ask n ask n ask n ask ask ask ask me to see the very very very tiny letter "E"!!!

then it's around 7.50 pm when i can finally leave the optic 2000 shop then wear topshop to buy many many clothes n i spend $265 there, rofl. i bought a new skinny jeans, n some t-shirts. then we headed to far east after jordon is so tired n jordon n karsan went home first n i bought 2 black short pants from 2 different shop. then it was around 9.15 pm n i rush back to wisma n took my new spectacles then haoru drive the rest of us to hougang 401 n had supper. after that we all went home. eventually i wanted to change to contact lens, but they all say my eyes were too small n it doesn't look nice if i wear it so i didnt eventually wear it, n i wore a few times before like on september last year, but i am too lazy to wear it because it's troublesome n hard for a small eye to wear it. saykiat said my left eye is smaller than my right eyes, n i just noticed that. so my eyes is like o.O haha.

n i slept quite early just now, i slept at 2.30 am n woke up at 9.30 am rofl. now i going out to have breakfast with my dad, n later i need to go simlim with my dad to fix my stupid CPU, most likely the power supply box is spoil, it's under 3 years warranty n it cost $188 sia the power supply rofl. n damn my this stupid acer laptop, acer sucks, keep crashing alot of times le. haha i deleted my temporarily internet file after 9 months like that of using n i from a harddisk left 800mb increased to 1.31 gb rofl, so happy. i think i wan to get a USB keyboard for my ps3 oso ba, so that i can surf internet with my ps3 easily haha, i wan buy new games!!!!!!!!! my ps3 i didnt touch for almost 2 months liao, i bought new game n i still havent play yet zzz...

12/04

woke up around 2pm, n i was really bad luck lor! i wake up noticed my hair very nice, very stylish when my eldest bro saw my hair lol, then i wanted to take photo with my laptop webcam on how my hair is like so i took down my spectacles, n my spectacles broke sia LOL. then went out around 3.30 pm, haoru drived me from my house to orchard there, reached orchard at around 5.15 pm ba cuz we were been delayed from many things.


so there were 5 of us, me, haoru, saykiat, kamhong n taiying. we went to eat sakura buffet n there's something that caught my attention very much lor at ther LOL. i was like O.O all the time hahahahah. the food there was quite good, me, kamhong n haoru has been eating too much of crayfish ahhhaha. didnt tried all the foods there though, however the food there is above average. n when we are having our deserts, saykiat, me n haoru took puffs. we thought it was just cream puff but then saykiat shouted "DURIAN PUFF!" then we were like OMG OMG OMG n chiong n try n it's really durian puff. then we were like "LETS CHIONG FOR MORE LA!!!!!!" then we went back n it was out of stock zzz... then we were also quite full so we camp for like almost an hour before the durian puffs were stocked up, we didnt ate much though, i just ate overall 3 durian puff i think cuz i was quite full after drinking so much of coke. n we left around 8 pm, one person cost like $30 after GST n blablabla.

sheng kai n xavier joined us after our dinner so then we walk around n i bought one adidas shirt, kamhong said it's nice n so i tested n it's looks quite good. $54 sia the shirt haha. then we went paragon cuz saykiat wan buy his stupid gucci wallet as his one is lost. then at paragon hor stupid shengkai push a door n hit my toe sia, n the door made a cut on my toe n i only realised that it bleed n it's pain after i m at seven eleven at lucky plaza. saykiat bought his gucci wallet n finally me n haoru can suo fu him to buy non-clipper wallet since his ex-gucci wallet which was a clipper one, he lost so many $50 notes LOL, good that his that clipper gucci wallet is lost la.

then we went to cyrus at river valley road there to play lan with others, then play till around 4.50 am then we had supper n then cab back home. n now i m feeling so tired @_@ so i m going to sleep le, later think still going to town to walk walk again with haoru since we didnt shop much yesterday cuz it's too late lol. n i wonder when would i be free to fix my stupid CPU, it's down since thursday because power isnt running, so i think my power supply is spoil or switch or the plug or some connection problems ba, hope not those expensive parts spoil can liao le. n the stupid CPU i bought it n use for just like 2 weeks lor -.-

11/04

woke up at around 1.30 pm, then get changed n stuffs then went out around 2.05 pm to CP to take train to aljunied. went there to meet up with jing yuan to go ubi to do things. after that it's very sianz at there, i just sit there hearing stuffs i dont even understand or interested in for like 3 hours lol.

then cabbed to KK hospital to put jing yuan off there since he's finding his friend n then i cab to dhoby ghaut to meet up with jian rong they all at the arcade beside pc bunk. as usual they are playing the basketball game n kianming n gao hui eventually tagged on 1 machine n they scored top score on 3 out of the 4 machines lol, the highest score they get is 720 lol.

then we all went to fish & co, opposite of plaza sing there, to celebrate deon birthday there. we had our dinner. n the staffs there singing their fish & co version of birthday songs for deon while deon is there standing at chair n looks very paiseh haha.

after dinner we went to hougang plaza to meet with chuekman they all to play pool as it was shimin birthday too. so i played a few rounds of pool then i changed playing billiard. billiard 2nd round was so sianz because we couldnt end the game n we got so tired n bored of it n we just stop playing halfway as the rest are going home too. then all of us cabbed home.

anyway just in a day, USD currency is drop further by another 2 cent. as expected, i think within a few weeks or days it will drop further more till 1.30 - 1.32 lol

just noticed that USD currency just drop further by 1 cent, now USD:SGD is like 1.37 : 1, few days ago it's still 1.38 : 1 n i think it will still further drop. the world is now changing so fast, everything need to be change. even us, we also need to change. we have been changing since the day we are borned, n we are under the same fate to accept changes around us - be it good or bad changes.

even if we don't like changes, we can do nothing to stop changes, n so therefore there's so many changes around me, i have to tell myself to accept it n i think i need to change my personality to accept my fate even if one day i like it or not, im going to change to a totally different guy from what i m now.

who knows what i might be next time? flirty? a ljl? someone who isnt thoughtful to care about others? haha, i dont care but i just live with it. n i dont think anyone is going to care if i do change in the next few years, maybe they even forgot about my existence.

10/04

didnt went out with zi liang to do stuffs because i think all of us woke up too late n i woke up at 5 pm when jx called me. so then went out with ju xian to watch movie - rogue. we watched at cathay at 7.20 pm, with arian, kianguan. the 4 of us watch only. then we trained to serangoon n took bus to serangoon garden after movie.

went to chomp chomp n had my dinner with ju xian while the other 2 are in lanshop playing lan as they arent hungry yet. then went to starbuck n bought mocha ice blended for myself n pure vanilla to treat ju xian. then the 2 of us went back to lan shop n play dota.

then many others cabbed down n joined us n we play dota too, after that the few of us play CS over steam. then i was been a screener, keep screening mat / shengbiao / shengkai when they are dead n i m alive, to view where's the enemies are. then i played too nub la, cuz i rarely play CS n my steam account donoe y tio ban for using hack when i didnt even touch my steam for like years lol. VALVE are scammers! i only chiong CS when i m p4 - p6 n stop playing CS for like 2 years plus till i m sec 3 but was playing some lame mod CS. then very less play CS le, so i was like kinda nub with the reactions n aiming, spraying my carbine gun. however my awp skill still "alright" because whenever i leisurely play CS at lan i always play awp map or use awp only haha.

so then the few rest cab home when me, shengkai, mat n shengbiao playing CS. then at morning around 6.45 pm, shengkai, me n mat went macdonald eat n cabbed home while shengbiao still at the lan shop playing lifeless sia him. n now i m so tired! richmond jio me go watch movie later on afternoon, hope i can wake up lol. n what movie should i watch....? most probably "Street Kings" or something ba.

ask yourself - who can u find when you feel lonely?

just reached home from nchs, both me n jeremy walk the front gate n straight away we go to canteen, then saw mr tay at canteen having his lunch there he was staring at 2 of us n we look away lol. then we just go canteen n bought our noodles. then mr tay walk off without saying anything then after having our lunch, i accompany jeremy to go to find his F&N teacher. he crapped alots in there la.

then we went off to office cuz jeremy want to take his o level cert and the F&N teachers are going off soon oso le. then we planned to find our dear god - mr krishnan after taking our cert but halfway to office, security guard and the OM come n the security guard scold us for wearing slippers into school LOL. then jeremy talk cock with him n tell OM that we walk in by the front gate then the OM gan the security guard nv see n what he's doing LOL then jeremy at there chio chio n i felt abit bad for the security guard la. then we walk off n go office n jeremy took his cert, then as we walked out of the school without seeing krishnan, we saw a charbo walking in with slippers too, n she headed for the canteen then jeremy go play the security guard ask him go catch the char bo then the security guard run n chase her LOL then we went off.

going to play dota real soon with jianrong they all, then after that we are going vivo to catch untraceable at 6.55 pm....

haha, i slept for 5.5 hours n woke up at 10.30 am n couldnt get back to sleep. it's long since i woke up that early, zao qu de niao you chong ci la. going to bath now n pei jeremy to go nchs to take back his o level result.

not planning to go WWW nor eben's chalet though, hope at night jian rong they all can at least make it for the untraceable movie, at 6.55 pm at vivo or probably later or earlier at cathay.

06/01

woke up around 8 pm. then went out around 9.30 pm with shengkai to CP to have my dinner at KFC haha. saw weihang, deon n weijie there oso, they also having their dinner at KFC lol. then we ate n weihang, deon n weijie went home shortly after their dinner while me n shengkai were slacking outside CP.

then benjamin joined us 2 n slacked awhile till like 12 am i jio people go serangoon garden play dota. then around 12.50 am the 3 of us cabbed to serangoon garden n meet the rest to play lan. we played till 6 am ++ then we went macdonald eat breakfast till 8 am ++ then all of us cabbed back home.

reached home at around 8.30 n went online checking stuffs on the stuff i going to do with my dad - putting my money on a fixed deposit on foreign bank. i just checked that the interest rate on fixed deposit on New Zeland gives 8% p.a like my dad said, but the forums i read also spoke that new zeland currency will not be that stablize due to their economy isnt doing that well n how's the bank going to produce that much money for us, by printing more currency notes which makes the rate lesser n lesser. however if the money is put over time, we still can recoup the losses over the currency changes if it ever drops, n might still earn abit from the interest. they spoke that Australia bank is better, its interest is around 7.8% p.a n the currency recently is raising, n Australia economy is better alot than New Zeland that means there wont be a huge decreases in currency changes in Australia too.

putting yr money on singapore bank is really sucks too, inflation tax is 2.5% n the fixed deposit with 50k ++ is just only 1.68% which i checked n it's not even enough to recoup the tax we paid for inflation -.- and who knows, Mas Selamat is on the run n what if he comes back to singapore to revenge n blow up Singapore rofl, the economy in singapore will fall badly by then so it's best to put my money somewhere i guess. roflroflrofl. i think maybe i going to put like 50k SGD into Australia bank or what, and 30k on New Zeland bank n left the rest at my POSB bank ba. my dad said later check with the banks for further enquiry which i think so too haha.

n seriously i dont think soon or later USD currency will have a rise in it, maybe 5 years there will be a slight rise back to 1.4++ but i and german friend still think there will be a drop in USD currency in midterm from what my german friend said. both of us have the same thinking that there's nothing to back US economy up to have their currency raised, but rather their currency will keep dropping because their economy is very unstable at the moment. and my german friend told me that recently a USA bank almost had bank crash but they eventually "fake rescued" it, so from that i can judge that USA market is doing badly n the "tian zhen" benjamin is surely going to have a loss if he still dont wake up -.- well playing with currency wont lose, but it's just that it takes how long to win. n i rather invest my money in china currency than USD one rofl.

my that german friend is giving me lectures on physics law LOL, he's telling me so many chim thing which affect economy. because i was asking him why is USD been the lead currency and he told me the history behind it, so it was saudi arabia had an agreement with USA that they only sell their oil for USD n everyone would want to buy oil needs to buy with USD, n since saudi arabia is the biggest oil producer in the world, everyone is like to buy from the country with USD. n soon more resources also uses USD to trade it. then i was like "if oil could be replaced with some other energies" n he told me law of physics rofl!

a scienties as good as however he is cant change the laws of nature -_- and one fundamental law is that you cant create energy out of nothing
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Second_law_of_thermodynamics
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tritium

i cant even understand much about those physics stuff he told me, he told me lotsa of it but i could understand like nearly less than 10% of what he told me n i was like "ok ok ok" n overall oil is the energy sources that we human uses it n since now it's a modern age, everything including oil conversion to food which is a need for human survival is needed, so that makes USD the leading currency in the world.

n he gives me a few website to watch about the economies impact shits, so i think when i got the time i going to view it lol.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=F-QA2rkpBSY -> 8 parts
http://www.businessjive.com/ -> how those systems work

n now my dad is waiting for me at 303 kopitiam, i going out with him now to bank to do foreign bank fixed deposit shits! n i still havent sleep since i woke up yesterday 8 pm lol. think i am not going to sleep le ba, maybe just go out till midnight then sleep haha.

around 12 am haoru drived us to changi airport to send wilson off to his NS 1 month taiwan trip, then around 12.40 am i was so freaking hungry that i 21 hours didnt ate yet since the ponggol nasi lemak supper yesterday. then i n saykiat went mr bean n i bought myself a super soya milk n 5 pancakes however i only ate 3 pancakes. then after that we went popoye awhile n slack there while some of them ate there. then wilson gotta go n so we send him off then we went to dont know where wan eat frog porridge one but it was closed since it was like already 2.30 am ++ le

then haoru drived us to geylang to have frog porridge, we ate till like 4 am then we went back home n i went back by kamhong car. it's so boring to stay at home n now i feel so tired, i slept for long already haha.

天色开始朦胧　呼吸慢慢沉重
曾经深情的承诺　像吹过的风
说什么天长地久　只是敷衍带过
心中的痛 眼泪溶入漆黑的夜与昼
分开　我们都选择了不会痛
而从今以后　冰冷的手
再也找不到你的温柔

为什么寂寞总是那么多
总习惯独自温习你遗留的伤痛
我不想再关上心随从我
彼此都隔着一层膜
静静的擦肩而过

天色开始朦胧　呼吸慢慢沉重
曾经深情的承诺　像吹过的风
说什么天长地久　只是敷衍带过
心中的痛 眼泪溶入漆黑的夜与昼
分开　我们都选择了不会痛
而从今以后　冰冷的手
再也找不到你的温柔

为什么寂寞总是那么多
总习惯独自温习你遗留的伤痛
我不想再关上心随从我
彼此都隔着一层膜
静静的擦肩而过

空旷房间里头
只残留着和焦虑的虚伪温柔
放开所有 拥抱这自由 让一切从头

为什么寂寞总是那么多
在孤单夜里包扎你留下的伤口
我不想再观赏心碎重播
心里那失落的梦
静静的随风飘落
心里那失落的梦
静静的擦肩而过

张栋梁 - 寂寞那么多

now i m feeling so lonely...... no one pei me go eat dinner. sian sian, till now i still havent had my dinner yet zzz.

03/04

woke up at very late, around 7 pm ++ then went serangoon garden to play dota with jordon they all. after dota-ing we all cabbed to forgot where le, wanted to have frog porridge one, but the place was closed for washing or wad one la lol. then we went nearby coffeeshop n have donoe pork stuffs. i was like not really to my liking all those pork stuffs. so in the end i had like sliced pork n meatball n rice only for my supper haha. then after that we cabbed back home n i went online n slept at around 9.30 am after that.

04/04

it's quite a busy day. woke up at 1.30 pm, slept only for 4 hours. i cant get to sleep easily, no idea y, i tried sleeping at 8 am but only fell asleep at around 9.30am like that. so immediately i woke up i go prepare n change n do stuffs n left home at 1.55 pm like that. i was in a rush to go to nan chiau to collect back o level cert with jian rong they all. we met at canteen n had our lunch. hmm nan chiau got a new japanese cuisine store haha. we tried on that n it isnt really that nice for me n deon because the sauce is too sweet. then after lunch we went to take our cert n i went back home while the rest of them headed to town.

i went back home to put back my cert n the souvenir the school gave us, then i was waiting for sheng kai to get ready to pei me go west coast recreation centre haha. so then me n shengkai took mrt all the way from compass point to clementi, n it's damn far! took us like 45 mins ++ to train to there. then after we alight, we almost lost our way to the interchange n then i asked n uncle for direction so eventually when we went out of the mrt station, the interchange is near us but we walk the opposite direction rofl. n when we reached the interchange it was around 4.45 pm and the both of us took bus 196 to the recreation centre.

so then the both of us found the lan shop n finally settle down to deal with the "hongster" female buyer haha. i say she's a hongster because the way she sms me is really hong type one. then after dealing with her maplestory stuffs, we went to the nearby billiard n pool shop n play 3 rounds of pool with shengkai. we played 2 rounds of pool n i won him twice LOL, 2nd round he was like anyhow play because he could win but eventually he wan do stunt as he was over-confident n miss the black ball so i then ended him rofl. the 4 side holes at the table was really small n it really gives a challenge to score the balls, but the mid 2 holes were still almost the same as normal table haha.

then we took bus 196 back to the clementi bus interchange then cab to cathay to meets jr group n other group of friends. settled ourself there awhile at e2max then we went watch movie. three kingdom, the movie is better than the empress alot haha. however sadly the movie doesnt really shows clear of all the story of zhao zi long aka zhao yun, nv talk much about his wife or whoever is it, n never talk about the infant incident of how the mother died n react all that n i know more about zhao zi long after searching info about him from wikipedia lol. the movie those war scenes n etc are goods though, however probably time constraint (since it already film 2 hours) makes them cut away many scene they should need to film like more about zhao yun.

so after movie jian rong they all left, n left another 11 of us, more likely i can say maple nerdies group, then they went to play lanshop which is opposite the paradiz centre while i didnt play it since i was abit tired n i want to help saykiat to brush up his dota skills. i think i m a great teacher afterall because the 1st round he lost cuz i was been abit relax with him, 2nd round i pressure him more n he at least not feeding n finally like after many times we played with him he could finally win HAHA then the 3rd round i was giving him many pressure till his nerubian assasin got holy shit streak n i was like keep making haoru sian cuz i keep asking saykiat to kill haoru LOL. then haoru sibei sad n sian lor him.

then after that we cabbed to punggol nasi lemak n had our supper then some cabbed home n some cabbed to haoru house play mahjong. i cabbed back home by myself lol. went online n chatted. found out kamhong is watching "huan huan ai (why why love)". i wanted to had that movie marathon last year near o level period cuz jr introduced the show and devil beside you to me haha, but i only managed to watch "finish" devil beside you, only left 2 episode to watch finish it but i didnt really want to carry on because the behind 2 episode looks boring to continue, all conflicts is like over le lol. n that time i didnt have enough time to watch because o level is like starting in next week ROFL n i didnt study anything yet. n kamhong let me watch episode 4 of huan huan ai n i keep watching till i didnt want to go bath till i watch finish episode 4 of huan huan ai. think i going to watch it when i m real boring in the future.

i think huan huan ai is almost the same as DBY ba, the story almost is like the same one n the people acting are also like almost the same. just maybe many things tweaked around from DBY to make the "huan huan ai" movie. n got my favourite artist yang cheng lin acting in that movie oso, i think DBY is better than huan huan ai maybe is the emo song which huan huan ai doesnt have it. "Ai Mei" is better than "Que Yang" lol, the latest album of hers isnt that good as her old album n 3 of her "emo" songs in her latest album isnt really nice, just average n below average to me. i still prefer her older album, the lyrics n music n singing were much better haha, whenever i hear to some of her songs like shi mian de shui mei ren can really makes me feel like want to sleep like that, her sound can makes me feel so peaceful n relax haha.

Zhang Dong Liang - 寂寞那么多 sounds quite nice, one of his new emo song. dont know when is he going to release new album @_@, hope got many emo songs for me to slowly appreciate it.

02/04

woke up around 7 pm ++ again, looks like i m turning back to night stalker again -.- watch channel 8 shows from 7 pm ++ till like 10 pm then leave home to meet jordon they all at dhoby ghaut there. stupid zi liang made my pc bunk membership card tio confiscated cuz i lend him my membership card rofl, so i was still "on time" to make it to pc bunk before the counter closes the shop n took back my membership card.

after that many of us went to clark quey bars, the 1st bar we went was ultimately boring, no atmosphere n nothing to do haha. n drank abit of martell then went to eat supper with kamhong at nearby coffee shop, the both of us ate wanton noodle. n kamhong saw his friend from RP n then the girl came to our seat n then chatted with kamhong haha. looks like kamhong is going to have his 3rd fling le soon @_@

after that we went back to the bar, then we stayed abit more at there then we all went to bill at around 1 am n went another bar because seriously the bar is too boring. when we entered 2nd bar, at least it's much more fun. the seat isnt that cramped n i was like playing the dice game with zi liang, wilson (birthday boy sia) n haoru. i keep winning at beginning sia, but then when haoru stop playing, left the 3 of us i keep losing sia. n i drink alot of martell think i become abit drunk n high haha. when wilson left to clark quey mrt awhile to bring his friend here, i n zi liang cheated rofl. we see the dice he had n the dice we both have, n make him sure lose. n i added alot of martell into his drink hahaha so it is "thick" martell like that. then zi liang scam me sia, he say want gang together to make birthday boy drunk, but in the end he oso wan make me drunk lor, then he n wilson ganged up together to try to make me drunk but luckily i didnt drunk la haha, just sibei high n wan drunk drunk like that liao haha.

then we went to geylang n have our supper, we had frog porridge. we ordered 20 frogs for the 10 of us, n the total cost of the frog was $88 sia, haha 1 for $4.40. it tasted quite nice ba, but very spicy because they put alot of cut chillies. then after having our dinner, all of us went home but i didnt went home, i went to jor house.

wanted to sleep at jor house one, but his brother was sleeping at the below bed of his double-deck bed. so i didnt sleep, i used his computers to play 2 rounds of dota, then went maplestory to help jordon train his stupid skynique -.- i trained 25% with ju xian partying me n it's like 3 hours of training, no slacking sia me. then 10 am like that i stopped playing n ask jordon up to carry on to play, then shortly after that he went to bath n i cabbed home. now i m so freaking tired la!

now jordon n ju xian want to go hougang 684 eat breakfast n i skip that, later they going swimming at ju xian house oso, n i think i skip that too, i just wan to go to the stupid wisma get my another bluetooth headset because mine is spoiled lol. so now i think i just sleep n later dont know if want to go ju xian house n ton, feeling abit sian.

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心 你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

had been hearing the song recently this few days, n i think i had been repeatly hearing it for like 300+ times since 10 pm when i was on train till i came back home, jordon oso download this song when he heard me hearing it at elevator when going to house n it played the whole "night" till he wake up it's still keep playing.

31/03

went to watch the bucket list at cathay with jr they all. the show is nice, n makes me envious of the 2 old guy who got cancer. they get to fulfil their wishes n do lots of stuffs before they are dead, a meaningful life for them, i believe the 2 guy will RIP after trying all the things they wanted to do before their death, if i can be like them, i will also die in peace haha. but sadly u need to be rich though to do those -.- n one of the guy is like billionaire so he's been able to do that. however i think i am still young and i can still do lotsa of things before i die though haha. the show is quite nice, i would rate 3.5/5 even though the starting part is boring, but eventually overall the show is nice n it's a comedy show. my online UAE friend from dubai, PEACEYALL, didnt lied about me that this show is good because i watch it after he told me it's nice.

after movie, we took bus 147 as it's like 11.50 pm and there's no train and they all went back home while kianming find his bro, i didnt go home though but i walked to hougang green to meet jordon they all. we wanted to go loyang to eat one but then there were too many of us so we ate at hougang green.

after that shengkai, mathew n xiaoben went to play billiard while the rest of us - me, jor, haoru, wilson and zi liang went mustafa n walk walk. it's fun there n u can slack around, haha. mustafa is so big n we walked around everywhere n playing with stuffs. they said that the indians are dumb because u can change the price tag n let them scan the item to a cheaper item haha but we didnt try though. mustafa is 24 hours i think n there's like lots of cheap stuffs there! n jordon is been gay to anyhow spray the perfume which was on sample on them, luckily he didnt aim me if not i would get pissed rofl. so after that we went some nearby closed coffee-shop n slack there n chit-chat n lame around. after that we went home.

01/04

slept at around 10 am and woke up around 7.15 pm rofl, then went hougang green to meet jordon they all at around 9 pm after watching channel 8 shows, they were playing dota at there. i didnt play though and then when it was around 12.30 pm + we left the lan shop after zi liang closed the lanshop, n we went back to the coffeeshop we yesterday went n had our supper again from the same noodle shop.

after the supper, me, jordon, haoru, ziliang n wilson went to geylang to walk walk n look around, i was there to jian shi jian shi how the place is like rofl, n it's scaredly sia. so many prostitutes roaming around, n those prostitutes are like keep calling out to "seduce" us rofl, n we all like siam them n i had 4 tankers tanking those prostitute for me HAHA! we were moving almost everywhere at geylang even those back alleys n i remember one of the back alley there's like 3 thailand prostitute n they molested zi liang LOL then among 5 of them, i was behind n the last so i was like thinking of shouting "OMG HAO RU COME TANK FOR ME DONT WALK SO FAST" then one of the prostitute pulled my hand but i managed to "untie" myself from her n then walk fast fast LOL. then we kept walking n walking n i remember got one time we walking past, a thai prostitute again wanted to touch zi liang n zi liang siam then i was like "OMG INCOMING MY THIS WAY" then i was like walking faster n haoru was like beside me then the prostitute go lie on haoru arm sibei LOL, it's like so fast she teleport from zi liang there to haoru arm sia then haoru was like "dont wan la, dont wan la" LOL.

hahaha after that we went settle down at a coffee-shop for drinks n resting, had coconut drink n the coconut was like so hard to open sia, even the auntie oso got hard time opening the coconut head for the one which i took, then thanks to zi liang la help me open, but the soon almost out of shape though. after that we carried on our journey at geylang walk, then they brought me to the illegal gambling at some back alley sia, wa so many people at there gambling lor. the gambling works like there's 3 dice n they put it on a cup n had it covered. then people were like putting $10 on the dice number 1 - 6 on the table, n if one of the dice got the no. that u place ur bet on, that means u won, n if 3 of the dice are same as the no. u gamble at, it means u win 3x time the money u gamble. n the winning chance is like 50/50 ba since there's 3 dices lol.

then zi liang hand itchy again like he used to be, he took out $10 from his wallet n say "gachapon" n try his luck, he put $10 on the number 6, n in less than 10 second, he won $10 n then we went off hahaha, he gambled one round though because i told him not to gamble more than 1 round arbo later he become addicted again hahaha. after that we went back to haoru car n he drived all of us home @_@

sianz sia! dont know when need to meet a female seller to sell her maplestory cass bandit to me at jurong sia, so far lor, dont feel like going. was susposedly to confirm with her like yesterday but i didnt do so, later i shall re-confirm with her ba! n then later haoru they all say wan go pub -.- n i dont know if i should go or not because i never like pub / clubbing. but probably i should go n give it a try and see how the place is like ba. haha, like the bucket list, try everything in the world while i still have the chance, dont wait till die then regret never do this n that ba.

is anyone out there also emo like me :( i feel so lost, i do miss her alot but i dont know what to do. maybe i should forget her since i dont know if i got the chance to be with her :( so i think i need to learn how to give up n forget... i just feel like this song that is now on my blog, some people say that i m dumb, n it's impossible, n now i feel that abit too...i think i should go to sleep now n stop thinking too much ba. walk a step see a step each day..