i m feeling kinda boring n sian. now i dont feel like doing whatever n the feeling of missing someone is getting stronger. hm i think i need some sleep, but now isnt the right time for me to sleep yet. what should i do? i dont even have any mood to do anything, watching movie? playing dota? sorry no mood at all. i can only listen to songs now, currenting listening to these 3 songs - yang zhong wei - yang cong, yang cheng lin - zhi xiang ai ni & shi mian de shui mei ren. probably this 3 songs i nv get sick of yet after listening like so many times.

i feel like dying now, how i wish i dont exist in this world, i wan to feel myself doesnt belong in this world now. oh god, how i wish u just let me die or suddenly disappear from the world without letting me knowing plz -.-

there's nothing for me to do now, i dont to go out because singapore is damn small n what can i do? nothing at all. beside movie (when there's like no much movie currently) there's like nothing more i can do so just let me die (although with regretness) but i just wan to disappear in thin air from this dumb world.

perhaps i just hate tonight, i wan sunlight now! i want to see some peaceful scenary to rest my mind now, probably a beach sight-seeing the sea or some high mountain sight-seeing or sitting somewhere to listen to the birds chipping.

(or perhaps i m too stress?)

i feel such a failure in life :(