I am not that sad afterall with the answer. I am feeling abit happy that I have clear everything in me and I can start afresh now. Haha I am not sad thanks to some people like katie, jian rong, deon, yong chuan and gao hui. I got distracted by playing mahjong at viwawa with katie and I seriously won 3x or 4x when playing with her hahaha. She only won once cuz I feed her with "Cai" LOL and her sister didn't win once LOL. Then she don't want play liao cuz I think she lose dao sian. Then I went playing with other players, and play the Sweat channel. Wah need 3/4 tiles to win and I sibei godly keep winning LOL. I play like 6 times altogether at 3 and 4 tiles mode, I won like 4/6 rounds LOL. Mostly are pong pong fu and pin fu hahaha. I think I damn pro and can be mahjong god soon HAHAHA.

Then played Wolfteam with jr they all, I keep owning lor. Then jr is food, some public dulan him hai us lose to gao hui deon n yong chuan cuz jr feed them scores LOL. Not only once but most of the rounds his frags are negative LOL. More deaths than kills, wad a feeder, free food.

Ok so now back to dota after 2 days of never play because was playing Wolfteam haha. So sian nowadays staying at home doing nothing...

And I shall not want to step into any situation like this anymore. I cut my heart once, and I don't dare to let it get another cut anymore... However I am still happy that I have one more friend now because she still treats me as a friend and so shall I.