CMaths1 test was kinda crap. One of my sets question I anyhow do, 10 marks gone rofl. And deductive sets I forgotten how to explain @_@ few more marks gone like that lol. Power set question, I have no idea what it is, around 3 marks gone. Hope that I can still get around 70% ++ to preserve my A, this paper is 40%. The topic 4 questions were kinda easy and free frag, but I am afraid that I am deducted for some working marks.

Changed my blog song once again. Li Jiu Zhe new and one of the nicest song from his album which is released today.

This song just let me think how she traps my heart and I don't even know what should I do to make her like me too :( I can't even date her out or what. What can and what should I do? I am in so a confused state for months! I don't know if I wait and wait will there be result. I fear not if this continues on. But still I can't do anything besides that :( Yeah this song is just almost like how I am feeling now, I am such a failure I think.

Hais, whatever, I should be going out now to watch movie.

hahaha skipped too much of CMaths1 lectures, when i was studying i was also like "is there even topic 4?" rofl. well luckily topic 4 is easy, like primary 5 or 6 maths rofl. just some significant rounding off, n truncating of precision for some value n using powers to solve questions. more like calculations.

however sets, the sets are harder than A maths one! there's extra one which makes me takes like 20 mins to figure out how to draw n write conclusion n etc. lol. n i didnt learn that in lecture cuz i skipped it haha.

hope tomorrow i can at least score 75% for my CMaths1, then from my past class test n term test i score kinda high-end A for both CMaths1 & CMaths2, so i would score overall 80% ++ n get A haha. i dont aim for distinction because it's still GPA 4.0 lol. just aim for A, i m not that greedy :)

exam at 930 to 1130, hmm....n i just finished study not long ago haha. exam is like 50% or 40% of overall, others are from class test, term test n some are class participation. oh shit i going to get kinda low marks i guess cuz the teacher somehow dont like me ROFL cuz i rarely do her homework or anyhow do or copy LOL.

lets watch death race later on after my exam! relieve this tiny bit of stress as next week will be more memorising work for exam! freaking boring, 4 exams left after later on, n 4 consecutive days from monday to thursday! how i hope that i dont have study break n they give me like 1 or 2 days break in between of my every paper. then i would really study lol.

but with the encouragement she gave me, now i have the mood to study so i shall study at saturday n sunday for CMaths2 n BITS.

just woke up not long. slept for 6 hours + like that n feel kinda energetic haha. now it's raining n it suits my current mood. now my mood is like this song that is currently on my blog. the sound of the dropping rainfall, so peaceful. yea, it's a qing tian yu now. i m feeling so happy~

信仰爱情

这场雨不知从何开始
真实是你接近我的清醒
像是兴奋剂麻醉了自已
见你我措手不及
我试着问过我自已
无解深深着迷迷失自已
越想接近你越怕没有你
有没有好运降临
给我信仰爱情的勇气
我的世界只有你
只有你
甜蜜确定不放弃
就让我可以深情
闭上眼睛深深呼吸
遇见你我是如此幸运
给我一个机会拥抱你
一生一秒也不要
忽远忽近看不清
给我允许守候你
从今天起
信仰爱情有意义
因为你
我相信
因为有你

yea signed up for dota competition on 31st. yong chuan, me, jian rong, gao hui n deon will be playing. hope there's still vacancies for our team.

team - SkY|L

yc - Jolint`
me - <3 A
jr - EnG-LeGenD™
gh - Gold (LOL!!)
deon - Orange (LOL!!! GAO HUI SUGGESTED THIS NAME!)

hope that the league manager somehow reply to our registration n give me the confirmation ID.

http://www.dotasg.com/forums/showthread.php?t=2884

this is the detail of the match we will be signing up. hope that our team get first or so. rofl i just noticed that the thread poster is *Asterisk from her sig, yea it's a "she". i remember that yong chuan that time we play draftmatch with her yc wan back off cuz of her, in the end i solo mid with my godly zeus with Asterisk lone druid n her lone druid got badly pwned by me hahaha. then in the end we pwned them badly n she surrender the match without ending the game. n then we suan yc after that of his hum-ji-ness hahaha.

lets hope that our team will be 1st or 2nd, or worst 3rd out of the 16 teams. ok we got high chance of winning from our past draft matches experiences n deon is been such a chicken to take part hahaha. he has no confidence at all. n come on we have been winning so much of draft games during the past few weeks of playing. we have more winning rate than losing rate. this is like the 3rd dota competition i joined, the very 1st was with nub xie chao, me, long quan, karsan n darren. we didnt get into half cuz of xie chao that useless guy. then 2nd was gxl, i played for 1st 2 matches then no time cuz of working in raffles hotel at year 2006 holiday. then now it's this. hope during that day i m free, n most likely i would be free cuz exam ends at 28th.

we initially wanted to name our team as "The Legends" one, but our name sounds kinda cocky LOL. well "The Legends" is originated from one of our games, TP Legends! yea we won the draft match with the TP Legends so that makes us the legends LOL. then this SkY|L is obviously, originated out of my name. it is because they say the name "sky" is quite nice HAHAHA n i m sponsoring the $60 through i-banking.

so now lets wait for the league manager reply my registration n still, pray that it still has vacancy for us. i playing the tournament not for the $$, but rather for fun haha.

oh shit exam in 2 more days, n i still dont have the mood to study yet lol!

18/08

well this few days have been doing almost nothing at home rotting, playing dota and dmc4. it's kinda boring. n so went out with jordon, say kiat, ju xian, arian n kian guan to cineleisure to catch a movie - Midnight Meat Train. i introduced them to watch as this is my kinda 1st LEGIT M18 movie haha. (yea the 1st M18 movie that i caught on cinema was rambo 4) kian guan almost couldnt get in because he's still 17 years old haha, n he came up with some excuses that he losts all his identification shits lol. but luckily in the end they pleaded the counter girl to let him in n she was so nice to let him in.

ok the movie was totally gross, i swear that i wont want to catch this movie again. it's those brutal killing types, it's a movie for those saddists like SAWs. i felt like vomitting when i saw the brutal killings. luckily i m not totally full if not i would close my eyes immediately on all killing scene. the movie is kinda nice but the brutal killing is too gross!! the ending is almost like saw n some other brutal killing movie, the good guys somehow lost or dead. the ending is that the main character joined the organisation as a murderer in the end.

after that we trained n bus to serangoon garden. arian went home to sleep n we played dota there, 2 rounds then i and kian guan cabbed home around 1 am. so basically stayed online, viewing forums as usual, helping zhongkai to solve his engineering maths question (somehow topics are related to A Maths n my CMaths2) n trying to get someone on msn to talk with me but no, there's no people. either all offline or afk or sleeping. @_@ i m so freaking bored while waiting for my hair to dry lol.

now i have to find some things to do, what should i do n what can i do in the early morning 3.40 am? @_@ hmm... i think i shall listen to some songs n watch MTV while waiting for my hair to dry

* GAO HUI IS A SIBEI DAO GUY! always talk to him on msn most of the time he dont wan reply. unless dota or school work then he would reply. wad a dao guy la. sibei sian

*edit - ok this sounds bad, this is the 2nd time my msn is "hang" i dont see anyone replying me or wad, somehow lost connection that i had to restart my msn. the 1st time was with jr they all. luckily now i realise is cuz say kiat called me to play dota n say he invited me in msn LOL.

boring boring boring
sian sian sian
好闷哦 好闷哦 好闷哦
退屈すること 退屈すること 退屈すること
지루하게 하기 지루하게 하기 지루하게 하기
бурить бурить бурить
alesaggio alesaggio alesaggio
Bohren Bohren Bohren

my world is so empty because my heart is feeling so empty because my brain told my heart that he is empty. how can i fill myself up?

1st exam paper on next friday. ends at 28th august, which is thursday. 5 papers altogether. n study week next week. i dont even have the mood to study @_@

12/08

ok it's benjamin n meiyun birthday.

in school just attend for the CARC lab test n it's freaking easy. guess it's almost full mark or even full mark for that 20% lab test lol. spend like 5 mins of studying on the lab test only lol. PRSP assigment handup n interview is kinda lol.

pon my first tutorial, CMSK1. well i dont feel like going, because i already have 100% attendance n i can skip twice still n this week is the last week n cmsk is kinda boring.

after that went home with gao hui. then stay online awhile then went to sleep for like 1.5 hours till 730 pm. woke up n watch channel 8 drama awhile till 8 pm then went out with karsan to CP n had mos burger. after that we trained to tanjong pagar after meeting fatty rich at dhoby ghaut. oh the purple line train ride was kinda scary n slow sia. i was afraid something happened to the train because somewhere at serangoon, the train has like some burnt smell on where i n karsan initially seat, then we changed place to further from the smell. n the train keep stopping for kinda long for almost all stop, n keep reversing/forwarding for most of the stops because it didnt stop its train at the exact position. so i was kinda afraid that the train become faulty n then crashes somehow lol, luckily it didnt lol.

after that went to party world to meet up with ben n others to celebrate ben birthday at party world where his god-mother works there as a manager. so then we drink beers n martel there. i didnt drink much so i didnt drunk, but was kinda high only lol. everyone was high there. n sad me + shengbiao + richmond, we 3 are anti-smokers n the whole room was filled up with smokes produced by the fucking smokers. we got so suffocated that we became "terrorist" by using our jackets to cover our nose, but it's not that efficiency. we somehow become 2nd hand smoker sia, the whole room was so cloudy n it hurts our eyes so much. there's like no fresh air at all! i think next time going there need to bring some oxygen tank lor -.- n change shirts n etc. my jacket + shirt + pants was filled with smoke smell although i dont smoke, n it's seriously so irritating to have the smell on u. it's bad for health.

thats the reason i didnt go KTV for a very long time with them, because i dont wan to feel so suffocated by the cigarette smells. it's very irritating n bad for my health. making me feeling so uncomfortable...

then cabbed home with richmond, eben n karsan around 2.15 am + reached home at around 2.50 am. n i have CARC lectures which is for consultation only at 9 am, well phew, i can skip that. but i still have PRSP lectures, n i think i can skip that too but i like the PRSP lecturer so probably not. no more PRSP exam or so, i m totally out of java n programming for the time being till next semester OOPG lol. n lets hope that richmond can get up at 7 am n call me. oh gosh it's 4 am now n my hair isnt dry yet, how m i going to sleep. 3 hours? hmm.. dont even feel like going school if i cant get up by by 10 am at least. if thats the case i will skip the school for today, since my attendance for all modules except CMSK is 100% lol. n all lectures is just like revision n revisions so i dont care.

ok now i need to wait n try to do something to stay awake till my hair dry before going to bed.

CARC lab test at 10 am later on. testing on some stupid CPU Stimulator on machine cycle most probably. it's freaking dumb because it's a more detailed version of debugging and u cant do shits with that knowledge.

PRSP assignment hand up later on too. most probably going to score A or so for my PRSP haha. but hopefully i dont get caught for sharing my piece of work with my classmate. well most of my classmates took my work n edit some variable names and comment n add in few more lines n it become their programs. somehow i feel disadvantage because i spent so much time doing n when they editing it, it makes the code better. while if i edit it, i need to spend more time haha. but well at least i m training n learning but they didnt. n when comes to report n demostration n interview tomorrow it will tells if they are really the one who do. they more likely wouldnt understand what my hawt codes is doing rofl.

hmm.. next semester OOPG i shall put in lesser comment lines before sending to my classmates LOL so they wont understand. n i m a kind person, i do n i comment almost every line of the command i wrote what is it for. so they can actually understand what my code does easier. hmm.. nevermind next semester OOPG they shall GG-ed haha. lecturer said PRSP mostly is 100% pass, because most of the marks comes from assignment n u can copy it. there's no exam for it, just lab test n ALICE(not java) term test. so it's freaking easy to pass, 2 assignment already like 65% n u can copy other people n edit the code easily. however OOPG from what i heard is that u need to do final exam on hard copy paper on the spot so it's kinda GG for my classmates. my lecturer also said that 50% of the people pass their OOPG, n most of them are at the borderline when the marker is so lenient with the marking. luckily i m not in gao hui IIT course, if not there's H(higher)OOPG. with my imagination, i think only 2 - 3 people in a class LOL!!

n i think n have confident that i m still going to be one of the distinction student to score in OOPG hahaha. because there are so many stepping stones...... even the malay babi in my class starting at there gey kiang very pro with java after editing some maplestory private server source code then act act in class always. however his lab test n his assignment proves that he's just nothing rather than a useless junk in my eyes LOL. (ok i sounds abit too hao lian probably due to i m sleepy - look at the freaknig time now! 2.42 am)

exam in 2 weeks time. n i think i m mentally prepared for it. having more confident than i m in secondary schools n so. probably it's because i m kinda complacent that i m consider my class top student + the current course at 1st year the best cuz i start with some knowledge n is a fast learner (that's what my DCNK lab + tutorial teacher said about me) HAHA. but well i lost interest in these hacking stuffs, if it's given to me like years ago, when i m 14 - 16, i might be hyperactive in participating these. but ever since i m sec 5, no, my interest was BUSINESS n still BUSINESS. now i have an urge to play stockmarket n learn it from my PRSP lecturer.

oh talking about him, he's kinda funny last thursday. he was teaching us how to be gigolo n dont let chances slip. go for a rich woman n marry her for their assets n dont regret like him, at the lecture hall teaching clownfish n bankaccount (those 2 are some class name for the java lol). then he told me something like "ken yong, you stop investing on stockmarket. now heed my advice n go buy the $1 TOTO ticket." then he tell the whole lecture people to hong me cuz i might tio the TOTO, so must treat me good good then if i tio scally tomorrow see me emo crying at a side. then classmates walk by ask me "why r u crying" n i will reply "red or yellow?" that seriously makes me lol because the red n yellow thing is ferrari car. n i did heed to his advice n bought $1 TOTO with another somehow "mentally" (he's mad because his thinking is seriously crazy thinking, keep imagine me doing something that i didnt even do n say i did - yea it's a joke but i treat that as a lame joke n jiao wei more with him) problem classmate of mine. n i got so unlucky because on friday, the pick was out n my 2 x 6 numbers, none of it got it! haha.

well my lecturer knows about me been interested in stockmarket because during PRSP tutorial, he at msn n his contacts will contacting him about stockmarket activities, so i told him that i m kinda interesting n ask him where should i start from last tuesday lol.

n it's kinda gay that i got registered without my consent by my classmates to take part in the inter-class within our course in dota game. i dont like the team because my classmates are kinda nub, no standard. i dont like to play with them cuz they like retards in dota. now i not sure if i will be turning up for that rofl. the malay babi got so pissed cuz my classmates dont wan pick him LOL. well seriously i want him to take over my position for that dota game because it's so uninteresting for me, especially when it's undecided the "competition" will be -ap or -ar mode. they are so nub, no draft game but -ar someone suggest it to be fair. well -ar is unfair because it's more like luck game. n hopefully they go by competition standard, -ap draft, 4 ban heroes n official stable dota map by then. i rather take part in the CS game than the dota -.-

n it sucks that my classmate from SIG tell me that he help me sign up for those CCNA n RHCT course n it's will be like 3 - 5 weeks of studying those 2 shits during my semester break. wtf that means i dont have break!!! be a top student is really that stressful la. lecturers putting high hopes on u, classmate seeking help from u, thinking that u know most of the stuff. n then u need to really work hard but i dont even have the working hard attitude. i m afterall a lazy guy, not like the current top student in our course, 3rd year. he is so hardworking although my lecturer told me that i going to outsmart him by then but well i m not even hardworking, it's like how am i possibly to beat him. like i mentioned if it's the 14 - 16 years old me, i would pwn him within my 2nd year most probably, but well no i already lost interest since the day i earning money from maplestory.

ok i need some sleep now, if not i m not going to do well for my CARC lab test @_@

exam soon in like 3 more weeks. starts at 22nd n ends at 28th. after that lotsa workshops n Red Hat Certificate course starts during semester break. so eventually semester break isnt really a break for me, but more stress n harder level of chionging + studying. n well i wanted to read books for reversing engineer one, but i think now dont need liao cuz workshop teaching. i feel so good to be one of the 14/60 to be selected for the workshops haha. n the better part is that they teaching reversing engineer! exploiting buffer overflow! just now the workshop was kinda naggy because my CARC lecturer + alot other students at there @_@ n they keep asking stupid questions. he tells us the concept for like 30 mins, but it tooks 2 hours to make many others to understand. n everytime he repeats himself it makes me goes @_@ again but actually is other people question makes me @_@.

i understood the concept in like 30 mins, sitting there to listen to other people questions n his repeating like 5x ROFL. hmm... how m i going to pick up some books to study on stock market @_@. mr PRSP teacher say he study 3 years by picking up magazines n reading articles before he play stock market. he told me to read some ROI which is something like return of investment or something one n other concept on how stock market works lol.

well just now the PRSP lab test was kinda easy too, 5x easier than assignment 2. i finish java coding the 4 questions within an hour cuz i was doing slowly, n question 4 i had kinda long time to find where's the problem with my code. so it's just the precision error in the end where i should use double for the loop parameters instead of int. that's the stupid mistake i made to took me like 15 mins to rewrite the code a few times to see where the fault is that the result is keep staying at 0. however fixed it in the end.

although i did my java coding slowly n got some obstacles, i managed to get all the 4questions code running smoothly n up to the requirement n standard of the questions. my other 18 classmates all either didnt finish it, or having errors in some questions, or dont know how to do, n all of them freaking pass after 1 h 30 mins n i at there emo-ing nothing to do lol. kinda boring day because 1 pm i go school for that PRSP lab test. then 4 pm to 4.15 pm go for CMSK conversation test which talks about some freaking eco-friendly stuffs about recycling plastic bags that i dont know what to talk to then 7 pm to 9 pm for the workshop. no other lessons.. n i almost slept through my days in school so uncomfortably.

dont feel like going to school later lor. only DCNK & CMaths1 tutorial only, no more APEL till next semester. the rest are lectures which are going through revision, so basically dont need to go much lor lol. cuz PRSP lecture go liao oso no use, no exam for PRSP just left that assignment which i already did half of the questions. n it needs to be pass up on next tuesday lol. but there's some troublesome guy, call jian rong needs me to print n pass his APEL personality test survey n his life mission statements so i need to go to school. n last reason that i need to go to school is because i m a guai kia hahaha. my attendance for labs n tutorials all sui sui, 100% for all my TP core n course modules.

well at least i know next monday i dont need to go to school, so woot 4 days of break for me! friday to monday no school hahaha. self declare break for monday because all lectures is revisions + no more tutorial for CARC + no lab for DCNK + no my favourite lecturer who is somehow anti-the-china-guy in my class with me one lecture lessons hahaha.

so now i needa go to sleep, n turn up for those revision lectures to kill my time...

had been studying for kinda long last night. from around 11 am - 5 am studying my CCNA all the chapters @_@ for today exam.

scored 65% like that, failed lol. well at least last minute study i could still get 65% haha. was not expecting to pass. passing mark is 80%. hahaha the china nerd never turn up cuz he's emo-ing about the BITS lab still.

yesterday BITS lab the china nerd couldnt do well for it, so he's attitude for dont know what reason LOL. probably pissed at himself for not doing well or so then crush his lab test paper infront of lecturer. then lecturer keep persuade him to pass up he keep emo dont wan LOL. then in the end lecturer say he last day he wan the china nerd wan like that then the china nerd in the end pass him back the crushed lab test of his then walk away emo-ing LOL. then he was been so retard not to go for BITS presentation after that n failed his presentation which is 35% LOL. i at there keep LOL n happy because a proud guy like him who dont admit his own mistake keep saying he wan solo during DCNK lab, now solo-ing BITS lab test he cmi then attitude LOL. probably he got pissed cuz i know how to do all the questions but no time to finish to last question only. even the question which my whole class dont even know how to do i also know LOL.

after the CCNA exam was feeling so stress free. so happy. my brain was suddenly playing the song, 可爱女人. probably it was i thinking about the time when i was studying for my geography o level. i was also studying till so late n chionging the whole chapters n that was like the happiest studying time. because i was kinda having mood during that time to study cuz of a girl haha. so the feeling after exam was so nostalgic...

想要有直升机
想要和你飞到宇宙去
想要和你融化在一起
融化在宇宙里
我每天每天每天在想想想想著你
这样的甜蜜
让我开始乡相信命运
感谢地心引力
让我碰到你
漂亮的让我面红的可爱女人
温柔的让我心疼的可爱女人
透明的让我感动的可爱女人
坏坏的让我疯狂的可爱女人



althought i miss her messages but i dont feel like sms-ing her anymore because i dont wan to be sad again. i hate the feeling of getting no reply in the end from her so i dont wan to sms. oh and i think she's looks cute thats y the song keep playing in my mind for very long. i wanted to listen to that song but my handphone didnt put in the song lol.