18/04

Slept around 7 am plus. Woke up at 2 pm to accompany Cheukman go ICA extend his passport! I went ICA like 3 times this year! Most probably need to go fourth time just for some lame oath taking things.

After that went Bugis and had 'lunch' then went Illuma and get KOI. Deon met up with us shortly after that then went Illuma arcade awhile. After that then accompany Deon eat dinner.

We then walked around Bugis awhile more then took bus to Grand Cathay and watch movie. We watched Hall Pass. The show is nice, and it's very funny. After that we took train home.

My NS enlistment date is on 8th June! 9.45 am! Sian! I want chiong my NAPFA already so can no need go for PTP and save another 2 months! I already starting to train for my standing board jump and pull up already! Haha. I don't want to get enlisted before my 21st birthday! So I need to really work hard for my NAPFA and get silver before my birthday arrive!

Oh... And I am going to have my FTT on this Thursday 2 pm! Hope I can pass if not I guess I won't get my driving license already! :( I still haven't study for my FTT and I don't have the Advanced Theory book! Shit! I need to borrow from someone on Wednesday and read up, and get Cheukman to send me the e-trial program since I lost mine!

Well, I need to get to bed soon! Later still need to go City Hall and meet up with Kenneth Chung to accompany him listen to some banking deposit talks! Lol! Quite tired and now I can hardly walk after I did some training for my standing board jump! It's like not much strength to walk or even stand up! :/

Good night, my blog! :)

Monday - Timbre @ Substation
Tuesday - Prawning @ Bishan
Wednesday - Phuture
Friday - Rebel
Saturday - Powerhouse

Monday went Timbre with Gao Hui to find Deon, had a really hard time of getting to the place. I got a bit pissed off when I asked Deon how to spell 'Peranakan' and he keep telling me Fort Tunnel, ends up me an Gao Hui walk like a damn big round just to get to the Peranakan Museum. The big round is like City Hall MRT station to Dhoby Ghaut then back to somewhere near City Hall again. Drink and drink at there.

Tuesday went Prawning at midnight with Cheukman, Shimin, Jian Rong and Deon. Felt quite bad to make all of them to wait for me 1 hour like that before we went prawning as I was watching some Funshion movie and I don't want to stop halfway! Okay... I managed to caught my first 3 prawns that night within like 1/2 hour! Not bad ah?

Went 3 different clubs, on 3 different days, in a single week.

Phuture is still okay. But the dance floor is still that squeezy and the songs are kinda... Rebel is great, with all the great songs. I think Rebel's DJ is the best! Not only that, it's also quite a night when I came to knew something! The feeling is.... HAH! Powerhouse is like.... BORING! Dancefloor squeezy, everywhere squeezy. Some more the songs is like -.-" DJ Kzee is too overrated. His mix isn't that good at all. Seriously there's like almost an hour of some crap electro, brazilian language R&B songs which turns the crowd off when it's being broadcasted. There are like so many nice songs out there, why choose those brazilian songs -.- 1 or 2 is still fine, but it's like being broadcast like 1 hour! It's a damn boring night.

What's this feeling in me now? I don't know.

周筆暢 Bibi Chow《I Miss U Missing Me》MV

Someone told me you found somebody
Found somebody new
I'm happy for you
Maybe that's why I don't hear from you
Like I used to like a faded photograph
Our moment's in the past
But sometimes, sometimes
I miss you missing me

Calling me on the phone
Asking me how I'm doing
Asking if I'm alone
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me

Guess you won't be asking 'bout me when you see my friends
Guess that had to end
I won't be hearing what you've been up to
Like I used to
Had our time
Our time has passed
No there's no going back
But sometimes, sometimes
I miss you missing me

Calling me on the phone
Asking me how I'm doing
Asking if I'm alone
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me

When someone calls me up at night
I hold my breath, I close my eyes
I wait and hope and pray it will be you
Calling me on the phone
Asking me how I'm doing
Asking if I'm alone
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you missing me

She won't miss me... 5th of the month had finally past. I bet she don't even remember this particular date like always, but I'll still remember every month when this date comes. Whatever it is, I should be happy for her.

Seeing you feeling so down right now.... How I wish I could be there for you. And how I wish those tweets are for me.

I just read my past blog entries till 2009 February. I miss those old days where I have so many things that I can do. Nowadays I am just rotting and rotting.

I think in the past, I like to crap more than nowadays although nowadays I still do craps a lot!

Nowadays my mood isn't that good. A lot of unpleasant stuffs happened. I want to get back on to my life!

If love is that simple, how good would it be....

I need a reset button, I need a time machine. If control + Z does work in reality, how good would it be to rectify my mistakes...

Shows and real life are always opposite... The good guys in show always win... But in reality the bad guys always get what they want, the good ones always get hurt in the end, or do I need to be an actor who isn't me totally to get what I want...?

People said that good guys doesn't exist in this world anymore, I said that they said that because good guys are always invisible to them. They don't know how much the good guys went through for them, they can't see it nor feel it because they are already been blinded by 'love' that the bad guys gave.

Yes.... I don't know how to explain my thoughts well. That's why you don't understand me. But even if I tell you... What's the use? You don't know what I know about, and how I felt. You are just too naive... Nothing changed, in the end the expression I gave was that I am the bad guy when I was trying to care and protect you. Yeah... life sucks, I am tired... Tired of being too good to people. In the end what I get was all the shit treatments.

Maybe this is human, they just like to live in their lies, and not to face the reality, facts, and what makes you so sure that he changed when he didn't even went through anything, from my point of view, he hasn't change at all. His doings are all the same, and I can see everything's the same, the pattern is totally the same! You said that people can change and pointed out that I have changed. Yeah, I went through a lot of shits, I realised it the problems and changed after knowing and admitting my mistakes, but it was all too late. But well... I learnt from my mistakes now. And thanks for letting me know how immature was I in the past, always depending on others, don't know how to care for girls, and my actions and thoughts.

I don't hate or angry you, nor him. Because I know it's meaningless to do it, it will only hurts me and you more and I want to stop that pain. Maybe being only friend is the best way for us, and becoming a total stranger from once a very close friend is also better for me.... So sorry that he couldn't be my friend because I can't trust him anymore. I know that you wouldn't read this, or know about this. But I just want to find a place where I can vent out all my feelings and thoughts here....

Now I am just another loner who you don't even notice. To you, I am just an invisible air.

I don't even know what I want myself to be now. I want to change myself totally... But if I do, that's not me

HAH! bye everyone!! I am going off to Guangzhou soon!! I will be back on 16 October, 5.25 pm! So all of u........ don't miss me when I am not in SG! I don't want to sneeze non-stop when I am in cheena!!

My plane will be moving off from Singapore on 8.20 am! Terminal 3!

Anyway, I am going to take Singapore Airlines there! SQ850 to there, SQ851 back to Singapore!

So see the news later on night and on 16th October evening news, if anything happen to either of the plane during the particular dates........ meaning most likely I am er.... SURVIVE! I am lucky so don't worry about me, I won't die that early!

Damn sian la. Rotting in home the whole day! These few days keep craving for instant noodles during midnight. Yesterday eat Magi Mee felt a bit heaty after that, today feel like eating again.

Guess I am going to rot for the next few days. Everyone has school and now I am having holiday till next Monday, I am going to fly to Guangzhou for OSIP for 3.5 months!

Yeah, damn sian!

Projects are so boring, and makes me stressful! I just did ITPM project, but there's like still so much more to complete for ITPM. I seriously hate ITPM project, I got D+ for the first test LOL but my score I guess it's kinda average, because there's like also a lot of failures.

Neither than that, I still have ITSB and TAIN project, TAIN project is like the easiest amongst all. However there's on more part to do and to be submitted next week.

Project submission all on week 8. That's so stressful! It's already on week 6 now! ITSB I started like only a bit only, and there's like also so much stuffs to do, looking at my classmates' work makes me more @.@ and stress! I hate projects! Damn those projects!

I just need to past week 8 and I finally can have break like 2 or 3 weeks before I go China for my OSIP. That would be like 15 weeks of boring-ness in China, after China it's like MP, which is like another 10 weeks of sian-ness, stressness, and shagness. I hate Year 3 life!

Yesterday was like so shagged. Whole day schooling from 9 - 4 pm. During ITSB tutorial, damn xia suay sia! I was like sitting in the middle of the class, and I fell asleep for like 20 minutes only, then my teacher suddenly call me wake up. And when I woke up, my mouth and hand full of saliva and then my classmates say that I even had a long saliva drooling down my mouth! Then the teacher even laughed LOL. Then during the lab lesson, was a lot better. After the 20 minutes nap in lesson, I felt so energetic. At lab lesson was crapping with the teacher, crap and crap and crap.

After that it was like 4 pm and went to meet up with Kenneth then slack till 5 pm. Go for the 'hacking briefing' and in the end all of us got scammed by the teacher who drunk us on Last Friday on Kenneth's birthday at powerhouse.

Nice one, told us briefing in the end become straight tryout, waste time, fucked up, I was like just planning to go for training only in the end there's like none. I don't even think of taking part in the Syscan competition! In the end we were like 3rd/4th (tie) out of the 5 teams. LOL. All we did is just up for stupid Fedora core 10 OS, and we couldn't even hack into Windows Server 2008 OS, in the end just one team could accessed into the Windows Server 2008 OS and what they did was a method which I wanted to try at that time, bypassing the OS through changing of Magnifer.exe file to cmd.exe. But in the end didn't do because need to download 21.8 mb file and there's like not enough time.

It was like an impromptu tryout lor, no tools no preparation no nothing to help. So we need to like start from scratch, if I knew about that earlier, I wouldn't even want to waste time going.

Then ended around 8.40 pm, went to eat dinner with Kenneth at opposite TP. Wah the drink store uncle very bastard, I gave him $2 note he gave me 7 x 10 cents change. Sibei sian, then Kenneth ordered his wanton noodle but never ever came so we left as he still needs to eat at home.

Took buses home, and reached home at nearly 10 pm.

Reached home, went to bathe straight. Then was like feeling so shagged, and packed up my laptops and stuffs then soon after that, Gao Hui reached my house downstair around 11. Then Gao Hui drove us (me, Cheukman, Jeremy, Wei Jie)around Sengkang area then finally no place to go and we went to his house.

At his house we played Chat Roulette. Wei Jie shortly after that around 12.30 pm pangseh us go find his primary school friend at nearby, but not sure if is his primary school friend or not. After that, we switch around people to play Chat Roulette. Jeremy keep shoot me sibei suay, in the end I am the record holder LOL. I chatted with 2 german girls for like an hour plus till all of us sibei sian! The 2 german girls sibei high, keep dance dance dance dance non-stop for me to see. Wah, but they seems to be very rich, they showed me outside their house, it's like so beautiful and big!

They asked if I got Twitter or what, I told them I got MSN and gave them Gao Hui msn LOL. Then they asked for my number then I felt quite reluctant to give them but in the end gave them mine anyway LOL. Then there's this funny part, they asked if I have kwick, I thought it was a mis-spell for 'kick', so I told them Yes! LOL, then they asked for my name I went to Google what's kwick, and realised that it's like another social network site for Germans LOL. And I told them no. In the end feeling so shagged and tired, then we stopped playing Chat Roulette. But it's quite a LOL session anyway.

Then after that Gao Hui play SF4 awhile and drove us off, initially we wanted to stalk who's that Wei Jie's friend, he is always so mysterious about who he is out with, like hiding something from us like that. Then we drove around Hougang area, and then in the end we can't find him so then we went to where he told us he's nearby at, Saykiat's father coffeeshop there, then we drove there and meet up with Wei Jie then went eat supper.

After that, Gao Hui drove us home, went home bathe again, then online awhile till 4.15 am and went to bed.

School has re-opened for nearly 3 weeks. Schooling is great, but project sucks as usual. Schooling doesn't makes me rot at home, but it makes me shag at home and stress at home / outside whenever have the thought of project not done yet.

Got 3 electives this sem, and it's term teaching. Meaning the electives last for 8 weeks, and projects to be cleared within 8 weeks.

TAIN - Technology and Innovation, the module is quite easy. Quite common sense and for human to study. In lab basically is like facebook, reading articles & news, doing own stuffs and then go off because project group always slack like me LOL. Then after lessons then spread workloads then do our part and combine to one.

ITSB - IT System Banking, the module quite interesting. The project part 1 is very easy, part 2 is @.@, seeing samples of the project already can shock me enough, it's damn thick ok? And a lot of research on a banking product is needed to be done, technical research and theory research.... Tutorial and lecturer teacher = Ang Chin Chai, which is the useless lecturer in 1.2 teaching me SAS, but well he teaches ITSB is better a lot than he teaching SAS. And some more he is quite good been a tutorial teacher LOL. I like to crap and lame with him a lot.

ITPM - IT Project Management, ok this is a fucking inhuman module. Too dry module, very hard to stay concentrate. totally is SAS #2, I don't understand this module at all. The only understandable and for human to read is yesterday the lecture about the Duration and Effort one, that one is much understandable. I made a theory on this subject just now with my classmate - "This subject is not for human to study, it's for those geeks and nerds to study" /me looks then point at Tjoa. "Only this current topic is for human to study" /me tapped on both me and Ivan. "And this subject only one person no need to study, pig lor" /me points and look to Elijah. LOL, I call Elijah pig is because since year 1.1 we gave him that nickname, somemore he keep sleeping in class like pig like that LOL. He still is the one that say want to go the lecture then in the end ends up sleeping. Eh, and this project is like I-don't-have-the-mood-to-do-at-all-neither-do-I-know-how-to-do-at-all. I keep referencing with my ex-classmates project then learn how to do from the referencing. Then the most pek chey one is my indian 'leader' groupmate, he very the cheebye. Ask us do the Work Breakdown Structure and submit to him, then in the end I do and think and reference it and complete it in like 3 hours like that, shagging and stressing and struggling to complete it. Guess what? He didn't do at all I bet, he just copy + paste from my word, word by word, table by table. And it's an individual work but just need to be compiled into a group later on to carry on the later part. If teacher ever sees my work and his work totally the same, I am say I emailed him mine and I don't know he copy + paste mine. I really WTF sia when he copy + paste mine.

And it's like less than 2 more months before I go for OSIP in China, Guangzhou with Kenneth. This Tuesday already went for interview, and the teacher said he recieved from the management then both me and Kenneth got accepted shortly after that lol. $100 per month allowance, air flight covered by school, VISA and Insurance pay by self, self-expenses, stay in hostel with aircon and wireless, but sharing with other school interns too; from 5th July to October 16th, 15 weeks. That means my Major Project would shift from 3.1 to 3.2 most probably. After the 15 weeks intern, chances that both me and Kenneth will be send to local SIP again for another 2 months then Major Project. That is so boring, because there's like only 2 - 3 weeks holiday for me after my electives for me to enjoy, after that will be OSIP straight. And not only that, no more Biz Park chicken-chopping with classmates! :(

Year 3 life is so boring..... I still prefer year 2.1 and 2.2 life, slack quite a lot LOL. Only project sucks, fuck projects and SIP. <3 bio-ing chio bu in School and bun hair eye-candy LOL! Ok going to bed soon, having lesson tomorrow, 9 - 11 am ITPM. Then shop around CCN day, 1130 meet course manager with Kenneth, 1 pm meet Mr James with father for OSIP shits. @.@