Thursday, March 17, 2011

I just read my past blog entries till 2009 February. I miss those old days where I have so many things that I can do. Nowadays I am just rotting and rotting.

I think in the past, I like to crap more than nowadays although nowadays I still do craps a lot!

Nowadays my mood isn't that good. A lot of unpleasant stuffs happened. I want to get back on to my life!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010


If love is that simple, how good would it be....

I need a reset button, I need a time machine. If control + Z does work in reality, how good would it be to rectify my mistakes...

Shows and real life are always opposite... The good guys in show always win... But in reality the bad guys always get what they want, the good ones always get hurt in the end, or do I need to be an actor who isn't me totally to get what I want...?

People said that good guys doesn't exist in this world anymore, I said that they said that because good guys are always invisible to them. They don't know how much the good guys went through for them, they can't see it nor feel it because they are already been blinded by 'love' that the bad guys gave.

Yes.... I don't know how to explain my thoughts well. That's why you don't understand me. But even if I tell you... What's the use? You don't know what I know about, and how I felt. You are just too naive... Nothing changed, in the end the expression I gave was that I am the bad guy when I was trying to care and protect you. Yeah... life sucks, I am tired... Tired of being too good to people. In the end what I get was all the shit treatments.

Maybe this is human, they just like to live in their lies, and not to face the reality, facts, and what makes you so sure that he changed when he didn't even went through anything, from my point of view, he hasn't change at all. His doings are all the same, and I can see everything's the same, the pattern is totally the same! You said that people can change and pointed out that I have changed. Yeah, I went through a lot of shits, I realised it the problems and changed after knowing and admitting my mistakes, but it was all too late. But well... I learnt from my mistakes now. And thanks for letting me know how immature was I in the past, always depending on others, don't know how to care for girls, and my actions and thoughts.

I don't hate or angry you, nor him. Because I know it's meaningless to do it, it will only hurts me and you more and I want to stop that pain. Maybe being only friend is the best way for us, and becoming a total stranger from once a very close friend is also better for me.... So sorry that he couldn't be my friend because I can't trust him anymore. I know that you wouldn't read this, or know about this. But I just want to find a place where I can vent out all my feelings and thoughts here....

Now I am just another loner who you don't even notice. To you, I am just an invisible air.

I don't even know what I want myself to be now. I want to change myself totally... But if I do, that's not me

Monday, July 5, 2010

HAH! bye everyone!! I am going off to Guangzhou soon!! I will be back on 16 October, 5.25 pm! So all of u........ don't miss me when I am not in SG! I don't want to sneeze non-stop when I am in cheena!!

My plane will be moving off from Singapore on 8.20 am! Terminal 3!

Anyway, I am going to take Singapore Airlines there! SQ850 to there, SQ851 back to Singapore!

So see the news later on night and on 16th October evening news, if anything happen to either of the plane during the particular dates........ meaning most likely I am er.... SURVIVE! I am lucky so don't worry about me, I won't die that early!

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Damn sian la. Rotting in home the whole day! These few days keep craving for instant noodles during midnight. Yesterday eat Magi Mee felt a bit heaty after that, today feel like eating again.

Guess I am going to rot for the next few days. Everyone has school and now I am having holiday till next Monday, I am going to fly to Guangzhou for OSIP for 3.5 months!

Yeah, damn sian!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Projects are so boring, and makes me stressful! I just did ITPM project, but there's like still so much more to complete for ITPM. I seriously hate ITPM project, I got D+ for the first test LOL but my score I guess it's kinda average, because there's like also a lot of failures.

Neither than that, I still have ITSB and TAIN project, TAIN project is like the easiest amongst all. However there's on more part to do and to be submitted next week.

Project submission all on week 8. That's so stressful! It's already on week 6 now! ITSB I started like only a bit only, and there's like also so much stuffs to do, looking at my classmates' work makes me more @.@ and stress! I hate projects! Damn those projects!

I just need to past week 8 and I finally can have break like 2 or 3 weeks before I go China for my OSIP. That would be like 15 weeks of boring-ness in China, after China it's like MP, which is like another 10 weeks of sian-ness, stressness, and shagness. I hate Year 3 life!

Yesterday was like so shagged. Whole day schooling from 9 - 4 pm. During ITSB tutorial, damn xia suay sia! I was like sitting in the middle of the class, and I fell asleep for like 20 minutes only, then my teacher suddenly call me wake up. And when I woke up, my mouth and hand full of saliva and then my classmates say that I even had a long saliva drooling down my mouth! Then the teacher even laughed LOL. Then during the lab lesson, was a lot better. After the 20 minutes nap in lesson, I felt so energetic. At lab lesson was crapping with the teacher, crap and crap and crap.

After that it was like 4 pm and went to meet up with Kenneth then slack till 5 pm. Go for the 'hacking briefing' and in the end all of us got scammed by the teacher who drunk us on Last Friday on Kenneth's birthday at powerhouse.

Nice one, told us briefing in the end become straight tryout, waste time, fucked up, I was like just planning to go for training only in the end there's like none. I don't even think of taking part in the Syscan competition! In the end we were like 3rd/4th (tie) out of the 5 teams. LOL. All we did is just up for stupid Fedora core 10 OS, and we couldn't even hack into Windows Server 2008 OS, in the end just one team could accessed into the Windows Server 2008 OS and what they did was a method which I wanted to try at that time, bypassing the OS through changing of Magnifer.exe file to cmd.exe. But in the end didn't do because need to download 21.8 mb file and there's like not enough time.

It was like an impromptu tryout lor, no tools no preparation no nothing to help. So we need to like start from scratch, if I knew about that earlier, I wouldn't even want to waste time going.

Then ended around 8.40 pm, went to eat dinner with Kenneth at opposite TP. Wah the drink store uncle very bastard, I gave him $2 note he gave me 7 x 10 cents change. Sibei sian, then Kenneth ordered his wanton noodle but never ever came so we left as he still needs to eat at home.

Took buses home, and reached home at nearly 10 pm.

Reached home, went to bathe straight. Then was like feeling so shagged, and packed up my laptops and stuffs then soon after that, Gao Hui reached my house downstair around 11. Then Gao Hui drove us (me, Cheukman, Jeremy, Wei Jie)around Sengkang area then finally no place to go and we went to his house.

At his house we played Chat Roulette. Wei Jie shortly after that around 12.30 pm pangseh us go find his primary school friend at nearby, but not sure if is his primary school friend or not. After that, we switch around people to play Chat Roulette. Jeremy keep shoot me sibei suay, in the end I am the record holder LOL. I chatted with 2 german girls for like an hour plus till all of us sibei sian! The 2 german girls sibei high, keep dance dance dance dance non-stop for me to see. Wah, but they seems to be very rich, they showed me outside their house, it's like so beautiful and big!

They asked if I got Twitter or what, I told them I got MSN and gave them Gao Hui msn LOL. Then they asked for my number then I felt quite reluctant to give them but in the end gave them mine anyway LOL. Then there's this funny part, they asked if I have kwick, I thought it was a mis-spell for 'kick', so I told them Yes! LOL, then they asked for my name I went to Google what's kwick, and realised that it's like another social network site for Germans LOL. And I told them no. In the end feeling so shagged and tired, then we stopped playing Chat Roulette. But it's quite a LOL session anyway.

Then after that Gao Hui play SF4 awhile and drove us off, initially we wanted to stalk who's that Wei Jie's friend, he is always so mysterious about who he is out with, like hiding something from us like that. Then we drove around Hougang area, and then in the end we can't find him so then we went to where he told us he's nearby at, Saykiat's father coffeeshop there, then we drove there and meet up with Wei Jie then went eat supper.

After that, Gao Hui drove us home, went home bathe again, then online awhile till 4.15 am and went to bed.

Friday, May 7, 2010

School has re-opened for nearly 3 weeks. Schooling is great, but project sucks as usual. Schooling doesn't makes me rot at home, but it makes me shag at home and stress at home / outside whenever have the thought of project not done yet.

Got 3 electives this sem, and it's term teaching. Meaning the electives last for 8 weeks, and projects to be cleared within 8 weeks.

TAIN - Technology and Innovation, the module is quite easy. Quite common sense and for human to study. In lab basically is like facebook, reading articles & news, doing own stuffs and then go off because project group always slack like me LOL. Then after lessons then spread workloads then do our part and combine to one.

ITSB - IT System Banking, the module quite interesting. The project part 1 is very easy, part 2 is @.@, seeing samples of the project already can shock me enough, it's damn thick ok? And a lot of research on a banking product is needed to be done, technical research and theory research.... Tutorial and lecturer teacher = Ang Chin Chai, which is the useless lecturer in 1.2 teaching me SAS, but well he teaches ITSB is better a lot than he teaching SAS. And some more he is quite good been a tutorial teacher LOL. I like to crap and lame with him a lot.

ITPM - IT Project Management, ok this is a fucking inhuman module. Too dry module, very hard to stay concentrate. totally is SAS #2, I don't understand this module at all. The only understandable and for human to read is yesterday the lecture about the Duration and Effort one, that one is much understandable. I made a theory on this subject just now with my classmate - "This subject is not for human to study, it's for those geeks and nerds to study" /me looks then point at Tjoa. "Only this current topic is for human to study" /me tapped on both me and Ivan. "And this subject only one person no need to study, pig lor" /me points and look to Elijah. LOL, I call Elijah pig is because since year 1.1 we gave him that nickname, somemore he keep sleeping in class like pig like that LOL. He still is the one that say want to go the lecture then in the end ends up sleeping. Eh, and this project is like I-don't-have-the-mood-to-do-at-all-neither-do-I-know-how-to-do-at-all. I keep referencing with my ex-classmates project then learn how to do from the referencing. Then the most pek chey one is my indian 'leader' groupmate, he very the cheebye. Ask us do the Work Breakdown Structure and submit to him, then in the end I do and think and reference it and complete it in like 3 hours like that, shagging and stressing and struggling to complete it. Guess what? He didn't do at all I bet, he just copy + paste from my word, word by word, table by table. And it's an individual work but just need to be compiled into a group later on to carry on the later part. If teacher ever sees my work and his work totally the same, I am say I emailed him mine and I don't know he copy + paste mine. I really WTF sia when he copy + paste mine.

And it's like less than 2 more months before I go for OSIP in China, Guangzhou with Kenneth. This Tuesday already went for interview, and the teacher said he recieved from the management then both me and Kenneth got accepted shortly after that lol. $100 per month allowance, air flight covered by school, VISA and Insurance pay by self, self-expenses, stay in hostel with aircon and wireless, but sharing with other school interns too; from 5th July to October 16th, 15 weeks. That means my Major Project would shift from 3.1 to 3.2 most probably. After the 15 weeks intern, chances that both me and Kenneth will be send to local SIP again for another 2 months then Major Project. That is so boring, because there's like only 2 - 3 weeks holiday for me after my electives for me to enjoy, after that will be OSIP straight. And not only that, no more Biz Park chicken-chopping with classmates! :(

Year 3 life is so boring..... I still prefer year 2.1 and 2.2 life, slack quite a lot LOL. Only project sucks, fuck projects and SIP. <3 bio-ing chio bu in School and bun hair eye-candy LOL! Ok going to bed soon, having lesson tomorrow, 9 - 11 am ITPM. Then shop around CCN day, 1130 meet course manager with Kenneth, 1 pm meet Mr James with father for OSIP shits. @.@

Friday, April 16, 2010

What a mundane holiday, recently I do lesser blogging because I am too lazy to blog and nothing much interesting.

For the holidays I have been like rotting at home most of the time, going club like around only 5 times through the whole holidays, swimming a few times, watching movies and going town on some days only. At home either is mostly like reading news from sites, using facebook, listening to songs, watching movies. Damn lazy to do any other stuffs, feeling damn no life!

Yesterday went powerhouse with cliques. Eh, sucky night.

1. The staffs there sibei inexperience, tell me no offer when later another staff then say got.
2. The song there sucks.
3. Got a cheebye kia and his group there squeezed me then he elbow me twice purposely on the stomach after I purposely don't want give them the space I was standing at.

Damn boring night, almost had a fight with the cbk after I punch him once on his kidney. At there like playing imobster through my Nexus One LOL! Damn freaking sian. After that then we went Buangkok and had supper.

Then woke up around 3.30 pm. Then went online and do mundane stuffs and played DOTA for 1 round. Then went out to Buangkok shortly after that to had dinner with Jeremy and Gao Hui. After that we walked to Gao Hui house, at his house lepak all the way till 11 pm. Sibei funny at his house, I intro-ed Jeremy to go this website - www.chatroulette.com, it's a chatroom site to interact with other people through webcam, mic and the chatbox. I found the website by watching the recent Southpark episode and went to did a search and the site is really to be true. So we went in play, saw a lot of lamer at there PCC at their webcam. Those ladies keep "Next"-ing us. And an american kid at there point middle finger at me, then us 3 point middle fingers back at him, then he like not enough hands to use LOL. Then he next-ed me off, then sibei funny because after that it's still us 2 connecting to each other, and he gave a swift fast middle finger and next-ed me.

Jeremy also quite sibei funny, he at first trying to copy a guy, never wear shirt and on his webcam. He pull up his shirt then make the 'muscle' action and the guy was like "nice body". Then I was typing for him, and the guy asked if he's gay, I replied "yes u?" and he confess he's gay. We were like "ROFL!!!" Then we slowly scam him to show us his penis and he really did after asking Jeremy to take off his shirt LOL! He talks sibei dirty and keep ask Jeremy to add him on Skype or Yahoo IM LOL. In the end he got disconneccted or something.

Another funny part is a cheena guy, then Jeremy at there "hi" him, he "hi" back and then we had a casual chat. The cheena guy was like a bit horny, he ask Jeremy to play something more fun by asking if Jeremy has any girls or not, then Jeremy gave him a fucking bad mannered reply by replying him something like he always did - 'got your mother' in hanyu. Then we at there fucking LOL non-stop. Then the cheena guy replied 'b' (bye) then next-ed us. Then I was like, "see la, play his mother, he now kan pua dulan and xiao qi like Zhongkai" then we went LOL again.

I tio shoot by Gao Hui and Jeremy, because got once, I am kan pua lucky. I clicked next-ed got a horny slut. I wrote to her "hi" then she replied me with "hi", she then said something like "hi my name is Molly and blablablabla" then I replied her again with "hi" then she next-ed me LOL. kan pua LOL.

And then me and Jeremy also realised that actually Gao Hui is not as anti-social like what we thought, he play so many social networking websites sia LOL. He played Tagged and keep anyhow add people sia LOL. He somemore quite fierce la, because got a girl her profile there put '16 years old' and she added Gao Hui and asked him to intro, then Gao Hui replied back and asked her intro back, she then said she's 14 years old LOL! Gao Hui sibei fierce and comment back her something like "don't fake la, you 14 or 16" LOL. Then she replied something like "14, tagged profile fake =)" LOL. After that Ah Gao don't want reply her liao LOL. And then I went to create a www.wholivesnearyou.com after Jeremy said something about the site. I created and straight don't want play liao LOL, Ah Gao confessed he got play that site before somemore. Wah, damn pro sia Ah Gao, damn socialable.

After that, Gao Hui drove us, and then pick up Deon and Wei Jie and drove us to Jalan Kayu and eat Beancurd. After that he drove us home, initially at my house downstair we were planning to go elsewhere, but after like 45 mins we cannot come out with a conclusion so we went home in the end.

School is starting soon. I only got into 2 out of 3 electives which I am susposed to. Hmmmmm. The sad part is that I am going to be apart from my good friends in poly, different class. None of them same class as me, somemore now Gao Hui is same class as them. Kannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn pua sian! However the good point is...... EH EH EH! And hopefully my classes got a lot of chio busssssssssssssss la!

Crystal Jade Xiao Long Bao buffet later on, going town earlier with Jeremy to buy shoe and accompany him to cut hair. Shall chiong all the xiao long baosssssssssssss!

Monday, March 8, 2010

Holidays are boring! Life are boring! Everything is boring! Freaking no life!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

CNY soon, boring! Need to go back to Malaysia this year! So it will be a damn boring boring boring boring boring CNY! I seriously dislike CNY!

Going to sleep now, still got EHIP project later on at 12 pm, then EHIP class test at 4 - 5 pm!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Luckily EHIP and FDS submission is at study week, which is CNY. So I am not gonna be that shag next week! And that also does means that I can only repair my laptop the week after CNY week...

Yesterday EHIP practical lab test was like @.@, it's so damn hard. Didn't study for the lab test though, there's like 4 question. First question took like 30 second to complete it, but the other 2 questions tooks me like 2.5 hours to do. The last question stucked in halfway, no idea on how to do lol.

Well, in the class I think I am the only one who managed to do 3/4 questions, rest of them 0 - 2 questions only. :D so was quite satisfied with it. And I am the only one to complete question 3 hahaha, and the malay classmate of mine was the only one to complete question 4 if I am not wrong.

Tired, tired, tired, tired and tired after EHIP lab test. It's like consumating so much of my brain energy thinking and thinking and thinking and trying and trying and trying. So during FDS lab was like slacking all the way, instead of concentrating on the case study, I was like playing Elijah's handphone bowling game with Ivan, and man, Ivan was like ownage with 6 strikes in a row, the best I could get was like 5 only. And his high score beats mine! Gave up trying after quite a few times!

Went home at around 6 pm. Then ate dinner and went online, then went to took a 2 hours nap with my Desktop playing just 雨爱 repeatedly. Then wake up and do my SAPP report. Spend quite a bit of effort in doing the report....

What is wrong with singnet? Keep disconnecting, I have been disconnected from the internet for the 3rd time in like 2 hour!

Well, going to sleep soon. Not going for FDS later on at 9 am, shall go school at maybe 4.30 pm or maybe earlier a bit.... Having SAPP 'group' presentation at 5 pm, the last group.