Saturday, April 30, 2011



忠实地读着 星座预言
总是选择性接受
解释心里的迷惑
却逃避 自己犯下什么错

我爱妳 每多一天
越不愿 承认妳不能爱我
看不见 听不见 我对我 在催眠
仿佛一切没变过

爱是顽固的意念
反覆断裂又复原
像一个 姓名地址写错的包裹
再也寄不到我也没资格保留(我也不应该为你守候)

不能重头来过
怪我强出头 在意着妳太多
压抑每分钟 想爱妳的念头
他让妳难过 我给不了什么
我爱妳 永远都不能说

怪我强出头 非要撑到最后
是我不够成熟 不死心 还想逗留
谢谢妳没有
说破 这个故事 主角不是我

恨自己那么怕寂寞
想为你作的事好多
明知你要的只是 朋友的温暖
但我总是给成爱
妳幸福了没有 是与我无关的梦

Friday, April 22, 2011

21/04

Slept at around 8 am plus! Then woke up 1130 am! Then went to prepare to go out! Around 12 noon Ju Xian reach my house downstairs.

Then he drove us to Hougang to pick Fengzhu then Mathew up then went to somewhere at Outram park to eat curry rice. We ordered quite a lot of things and the total bill was $21. Quite cheap sia!

Ju Xian then drove me to Ubi to take my FTT! My FTT starts at 2 pm! I went in 10 minutes and came out with a pass! Hahaha! This is the 2nd time I pass my FTT already! My previous FTT expired on late March and I had to re-take my FTT again before I can rebook my TP :(

After that took bus 87 back to Sengkang and walked home! Reach home and get online then sleep for an hour. Woke up then shortly after that Cheukman drove us to Compass Point for dinner! Had KFC for dinner! Then we went IKEA as Xie Chao wants to buy pillow.

Then went back Sengkang, we went to the new Floating Platform there around the Sports Complex there and explore around. After that went Desmond house downstair slack awhile more then drove off to MBS outside nearby, then at there slack awhile and went home!

I am damnnnnnnnnnn tired now! Now going to play DOTA 1 round with Ju Xian then going to sleep already!

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

19/04

Woke up around 1 pm and took snoozes till 1.40 pm then went to prepare to go City Hall to accompany Kenneth. Accompany him to listen to some AIA's saving scheme at 3 pm and he's like really into the saving scheme and did 1/2 of the sign up process already.

After that we went Marina Square played 2 rounds of Daytona then went walk walk around. Then went Macdonald and had my McGrill meal. After that we went off around 5.30 pm since he's meeting his friends for some birthday celebration at Town while I also meeting Eunice for dinner.

So I went to Dhoby Ghaut and slack around the arcades since I just need a place to sit as my legs are really tired from yesterday NAPFA Waited for an hour plus for her to reach Dhoby Ghaut. Celine arrived shortly after we met up. Then we went Ajisen and had dinner.

After dinner took train back home just to shit! Then meet up with Cheukman and we went to Changi Airport to pick our Mao Xie Chao! Then we went to his new place at some condominium at Rivervale Link, somewhere near North Vista Secondary School. Waited for him to put his stuffs back home then after that we explore explore around his condominium and facilities; sucky facilities.

Then we went to Serangoon Garden and had supper, had Hokkien Prawn Noodle with Cheukman and we went home after that! Damn tired!

So, this 2 days I will be quite tight. Later on I will be going to Serangoon to meet up with Jian Rong for lunch and take his Advanced Theory Book for Driving and read through it and get the sgtest program from Cheukman to tryout the questions to prepare for my FTT. Then after Serangoon will be going to Compass Point to buy some equipments for NAPFA trainings, and accompany Xie Chao to buy his bed sheets and etc. After that will be home to study study study and have dinner, short nap then at night - Clubbing!

Okay. I should rest earlier today, so freaking tired and pack! But the night is still young.... So don't know if I got the feel to sleep or not!


I realised I still miss.... Why? There must be something wrong with me.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

18/04

Slept around 7 am plus. Woke up at 2 pm to accompany Cheukman go ICA extend his passport! I went ICA like 3 times this year! Most probably need to go fourth time just for some lame oath taking things.

After that went Bugis and had 'lunch' then went Illuma and get KOI. Deon met up with us shortly after that then went Illuma arcade awhile. After that then accompany Deon eat dinner.

We then walked around Bugis awhile more then took bus to Grand Cathay and watch movie. We watched Hall Pass. The show is nice, and it's very funny. After that we took train home.

My NS enlistment date is on 8th June! 9.45 am! Sian! I want chiong my NAPFA already so can no need go for PTP and save another 2 months! I already starting to train for my standing board jump and pull up already! Haha. I don't want to get enlisted before my 21st birthday! So I need to really work hard for my NAPFA and get silver before my birthday arrive!

Oh... And I am going to have my FTT on this Thursday 2 pm! Hope I can pass if not I guess I won't get my driving license already! :( I still haven't study for my FTT and I don't have the Advanced Theory book! Shit! I need to borrow from someone on Wednesday and read up, and get Cheukman to send me the e-trial program since I lost mine!

Well, I need to get to bed soon! Later still need to go City Hall and meet up with Kenneth Chung to accompany him listen to some banking deposit talks! Lol! Quite tired and now I can hardly walk after I did some training for my standing board jump! It's like not much strength to walk or even stand up! :/

Good night, my blog! :)

Monday, April 18, 2011

Monday - Timbre @ Substation
Tuesday - Prawning @ Bishan
Wednesday - Phuture
Friday - Rebel
Saturday - Powerhouse

Monday went Timbre with Gao Hui to find Deon, had a really hard time of getting to the place. I got a bit pissed off when I asked Deon how to spell 'Peranakan' and he keep telling me Fort Tunnel, ends up me an Gao Hui walk like a damn big round just to get to the Peranakan Museum. The big round is like City Hall MRT station to Dhoby Ghaut then back to somewhere near City Hall again. Drink and drink at there.

Tuesday went Prawning at midnight with Cheukman, Shimin, Jian Rong and Deon. Felt quite bad to make all of them to wait for me 1 hour like that before we went prawning as I was watching some Funshion movie and I don't want to stop halfway! Okay... I managed to caught my first 3 prawns that night within like 1/2 hour! Not bad ah?

Went 3 different clubs, on 3 different days, in a single week.

Phuture is still okay. But the dance floor is still that squeezy and the songs are kinda... Rebel is great, with all the great songs. I think Rebel's DJ is the best! Not only that, it's also quite a night when I came to knew something! The feeling is.... HAH! Powerhouse is like.... BORING! Dancefloor squeezy, everywhere squeezy. Some more the songs is like -.-" DJ Kzee is too overrated. His mix isn't that good at all. Seriously there's like almost an hour of some crap electro, brazilian language R&B songs which turns the crowd off when it's being broadcasted. There are like so many nice songs out there, why choose those brazilian songs -.- 1 or 2 is still fine, but it's like being broadcast like 1 hour! It's a damn boring night.

What's this feeling in me now? I don't know.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

周筆暢 Bibi Chow《I Miss U Missing Me》MV



Someone told me you found somebody
Found somebody new
I'm happy for you
Maybe that's why I don't hear from you
Like I used to like a faded photograph
Our moment's in the past
But sometimes, sometimes
I miss you missing me

Calling me on the phone
Asking me how I'm doing
Asking if I'm alone
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me

Guess you won't be asking 'bout me when you see my friends
Guess that had to end
I won't be hearing what you've been up to
Like I used to
Had our time
Our time has passed
No there's no going back
But sometimes, sometimes
I miss you missing me

Calling me on the phone
Asking me how I'm doing
Asking if I'm alone
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me

When someone calls me up at night
I hold my breath, I close my eyes
I wait and hope and pray it will be you
Calling me on the phone
Asking me how I'm doing
Asking if I'm alone
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you missing me
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you missing me


She won't miss me... 5th of the month had finally past. I bet she don't even remember this particular date like always, but I'll still remember every month when this date comes. Whatever it is, I should be happy for her.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Seeing you feeling so down right now.... How I wish I could be there for you. And how I wish those tweets are for me.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

I just read my past blog entries till 2009 February. I miss those old days where I have so many things that I can do. Nowadays I am just rotting and rotting.

I think in the past, I like to crap more than nowadays although nowadays I still do craps a lot!

Nowadays my mood isn't that good. A lot of unpleasant stuffs happened. I want to get back on to my life!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010


If love is that simple, how good would it be....

I need a reset button, I need a time machine. If control + Z does work in reality, how good would it be to rectify my mistakes...

Shows and real life are always opposite... The good guys in show always win... But in reality the bad guys always get what they want, the good ones always get hurt in the end, or do I need to be an actor who isn't me totally to get what I want...?

People said that good guys doesn't exist in this world anymore, I said that they said that because good guys are always invisible to them. They don't know how much the good guys went through for them, they can't see it nor feel it because they are already been blinded by 'love' that the bad guys gave.

Yes.... I don't know how to explain my thoughts well. That's why you don't understand me. But even if I tell you... What's the use? You don't know what I know about, and how I felt. You are just too naive... Nothing changed, in the end the expression I gave was that I am the bad guy when I was trying to care and protect you. Yeah... life sucks, I am tired... Tired of being too good to people. In the end what I get was all the shit treatments.

Maybe this is human, they just like to live in their lies, and not to face the reality, facts, and what makes you so sure that he changed when he didn't even went through anything, from my point of view, he hasn't change at all. His doings are all the same, and I can see everything's the same, the pattern is totally the same! You said that people can change and pointed out that I have changed. Yeah, I went through a lot of shits, I realised it the problems and changed after knowing and admitting my mistakes, but it was all too late. But well... I learnt from my mistakes now. And thanks for letting me know how immature was I in the past, always depending on others, don't know how to care for girls, and my actions and thoughts.

I don't hate or angry you, nor him. Because I know it's meaningless to do it, it will only hurts me and you more and I want to stop that pain. Maybe being only friend is the best way for us, and becoming a total stranger from once a very close friend is also better for me.... So sorry that he couldn't be my friend because I can't trust him anymore. I know that you wouldn't read this, or know about this. But I just want to find a place where I can vent out all my feelings and thoughts here....

Now I am just another loner who you don't even notice. To you, I am just an invisible air.

I don't even know what I want myself to be now. I want to change myself totally... But if I do, that's not me

Monday, July 5, 2010

HAH! bye everyone!! I am going off to Guangzhou soon!! I will be back on 16 October, 5.25 pm! So all of u........ don't miss me when I am not in SG! I don't want to sneeze non-stop when I am in cheena!!

My plane will be moving off from Singapore on 8.20 am! Terminal 3!

Anyway, I am going to take Singapore Airlines there! SQ850 to there, SQ851 back to Singapore!

So see the news later on night and on 16th October evening news, if anything happen to either of the plane during the particular dates........ meaning most likely I am er.... SURVIVE! I am lucky so don't worry about me, I won't die that early!