我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你
Is that really the only way out for me?
07/09
Played Mahjong with jeremy and katie at viwawa. Then went to watch Channel 8 Naked Weapon, the movie is kinda nice. Then played a round of dota. Life is so boring and meaningless, nothing to do at all. What we do mostly is just study and study and study, stresses comes in all the time. Then after studying, we don't even get to enjoy, mostly is then working or so. And if no work, then it's staying at home boring-ness. Sleep, eat, online, watch TV. Nothing else to do, life is simple....AND BORING AND MEANINGLESS.
And this is seriously sucks, because they expect us to go back to NTU for another seminar talk, why don't they just freaking end it on that session yesterday. They are freaking dumb, senseless, inconsiderate. Don't they know that how troublesome is it for some people like me and wei lin to travel there. It's almost an 1 hour 30 minutes trip to there -.- I wonder how will my 2nd brother going to survive after his army. Because he is getting to NTU business school, Nanyang Business School (NBS) after his army. His seat there is already secured because he recieved letter to go for interview there and got selected. He is been that so retard to go into some mechantronics course in TP with his L1R4 8 points, why go for a 2X course in poly lol. He seriously regretted that he nows jump to business -.-
Although now the talk is during night time, that's why it's worst. Because it's 10th September, and I need to go back to TP for intermediate hacking workshop at 7 pm - 9 pm. So it crashes into my timetable. And no way I am giving up my hacking workshop. So no I am not going for that seminar talk, sorry wei lin that I can't make it during that day lol. Oh yea and the stock market challenge stimulated game is going to start at monday -.-
Talking back bout university, I still haven't make up my mind whether if I want to go for degree studies after my army. Because I would most likely to lose my interest on study & study. It's basically too time wasting for my course on university, computer science. And after army I already wasted another 2 years + It's so unfair for males to go into army. I shall see if I am given opportunity in my industry after my army, and in IT industry, going to university is not really needed. Getting certificates like Cisco Networking Certs, Red Hat Certified Technician and so, it's more useful than a degree. Afterall my german friend already said computer science is more like wanting us to find a way to prove P = NP. Oh well many great matheticians already can't solve that now, and who am I to solve that -.- I can't be that lucky to get that 7 million nobel prize to solve that. I might consider of going to Australia to study my computer science degree after my army probably, since it's just 1 more year of studying if my GPA is > 3.0 which is possible for me lol.
So tired...Think I shall sleep now. And best if I can't wake up, I would wish to get stuck in my dream forever. No matter whether it's a good or bad dream, just let me die while in my dream so I don't have to suffer in this meaningless world.
06/09
Eventually I didn't sleep much before going to NTU, I fell asleep around 5.15 am or 5.20 am finally, however wei lin rang my home phone on 5.29 am lol, so I think I slept for like 10 mins only before going to NTU.
Then around 6.30 am wei lin rang me again, I fell asleep at my sofa, my mind was totally a blank of don't know what happened, then I suddenly remember I was susposedly to go out at 6.30 am to CP to meet wei lin.
After that rush to CP to meet wei lin. Then zhun zhun when I reached MRT just arrived so we chiong all the way for MRT then. Then after that took MRT to outram park and change to green line to boon lay. I didn't fell asleep at all at MRT while wei lin did, I slept hell lot lesser than him lol. We reached there quite early so had my breakfast at jurong point macdonald. Oh anyway this is the first time I went to Boon Lay lol, I never even go there once in my life.
Then after that we took bus 173 or something to NTU, NTU is seriously big. It's like 6x the size of SP or something like that, think got like half or 3/4 of the size of botanic garden or so. Even all the polys add up together also not bigger than that. NTU facilities and place is all so nice and neat, even the whole place looks so grand.
Then around 8.30 am we reached the Auditorium hall then we at there register our attendance, then took our goodies bag and signed up for some OCBC Young Investor Pack. Then went into the big hall and sat down. Seriously I am pretty mad because I didn't sleep much as the time states 9 am, but the talk starts at 10 am, and those talks are lame, useless, time-wasting and so. Till like 12 pm then is the real important talk, and the talk is like 1/2 hour. The guy presentation skill is not good at all, making me feeling kinda asleep (especially when I didn't sleep like for so long). The talks I also don't understand most of the definitions and so, the talk is more like for those ametuars that had studied Business before. And even wei lin study in Accountancy in NP also couldn't understand the talk.
However finally got know to what the stocks are all about, those fundamental analysis and Graph Statistic Analysis, isn't that some common sense ideas that I got it long ago and I already knew -.- Only 1/2 of the parts are those definitions part that are kinda new to me. However the sucks most is still that they give some some booklet and expect us to read @_@. It's so thick with like 300 + pages on one particular stock booklet. And I don't even feel like reading the thick booklet.
The talks end at 12.30 pm like that then I and wei lin took bus 173 back to Jurong Point and had our lunch at MOS burger. Then took train home, I didn't fell asleep for all the way till the way back home, not even in the hall. Only when train back to Dhoby Ghaut and Sengkang I fell asleep. However luckily I was awake on Dhoby Ghaut if not we are going to spend more time travelling back. Then on Sengkang Wei Lin woke me up.
Then reached home like 3 pm, then went online for awhile then sleep till 8 pm, had my dinner and did like nothing.
