Got back my CARC paper today. Scored 35/40, kinda feel happy because I am like the 3rd among the 19 students in my class? And I met my expectation of scoring A for my tests. Hope that I can score A for other 5 tests, I am aiming for GPA 4.0 this year. GPA 3.5 + for next year, hope my aim comes true although I don't really studies or do my homework or projects. Maybe like what my brother told me long ago that you don't really need to study, you just need to pay attention in class like him and do some revisions before the tests to score good. However I want to be better that I don't really need to do homework to get good results :) Just like Saturday in Nan Chiau what Mr Lee told me that I proved him wrong that "no need to do homework also can score B3 for A Maths". The reason I am doing this is because I think I want to maximise my brain potential to the max, probably I want to be some knowledgable, clever guy... I want to prove that doing homework isn't that useful, understanding the concept is the best. Understanding beats practising without understanding.

Ok, tomorrow having stupid CMSK test, I don't think I can do well for the email test because I don't even memorise the email writing format, oh wait! Does that means my GPA 4.0 is going to die!? Nah I only consider GPA 4.0 for the Module Core, not TP Core.

Hancock preview out at Wednesday, anyone wants to watch the movie on Wednesday - Saturday? Either one of the day will do. I need to rush for my Cisco Networking Academy tests and lectures slides soon on the e-learning portal -.-" and my stupid projects and java programming. And the 4th July Cisco trip is cancel :( kinda sad. So I think I can only stay at home doing nothing, or just watching Naruto like this few days. Still on Naruto Shippuden Episode 42, well I am slow because I didn't catch Naruto like since early secondary five because I got boring enough waiting for the 'make-up' of Naruto to grow up from his training over. Then I lost interest in watching Naruto afterwards and now I am watching just to kill time..

(Well eventually I wrote in using better English now okay? Just for this post only because I don't have the feel of writing with 'shitty engrish'. And stop complaining for my careless spelling and language for some of you - you know who you are...)

i m feeling kinda boring n sian. now i dont feel like doing whatever n the feeling of missing someone is getting stronger. hm i think i need some sleep, but now isnt the right time for me to sleep yet. what should i do? i dont even have any mood to do anything, watching movie? playing dota? sorry no mood at all. i can only listen to songs now, currenting listening to these 3 songs - yang zhong wei - yang cong, yang cheng lin - zhi xiang ai ni & shi mian de shui mei ren. probably this 3 songs i nv get sick of yet after listening like so many times.

i feel like dying now, how i wish i dont exist in this world, i wan to feel myself doesnt belong in this world now. oh god, how i wish u just let me die or suddenly disappear from the world without letting me knowing plz -.-

there's nothing for me to do now, i dont to go out because singapore is damn small n what can i do? nothing at all. beside movie (when there's like no much movie currently) there's like nothing more i can do so just let me die (although with regretness) but i just wan to disappear in thin air from this dumb world.

perhaps i just hate tonight, i wan sunlight now! i want to see some peaceful scenary to rest my mind now, probably a beach sight-seeing the sea or some high mountain sight-seeing or sitting somewhere to listen to the birds chipping.

(or perhaps i m too stress?)

i feel such a failure in life :(

feeling so tired. ever after since school re-open, i sleep like 3 - 4 hours daily only -.- always sleep around 4 am ++ n wake up at 7.20 am like that lol.. althought i have another 2 - 3 hours afternoon nap after school, i still feel tired lol. this week is lucky because some of the lectures n tutorials are cancelled and my school on tuesday is released at 4 pm, wednesday 3 pm. however later my school still ends at 5 pm. just completed CARC project of my part in the group doing software analysing under a scenario of ethical hacker newbie. took me hours and days of reading articles about hacking although it's just extra knowledge for me lol. probably i got back some kick for getting knowledge to be a hacker like i used to be a few years ago.

well the CMaths1 enrichment talk talks about how binary value system came about and i find it quite awesome n interesting that it was originated from the taoist bagua mirror ROFL! so we should be proud of the taoist bagua mirror that eventually gives us the binary value system which all computers had to use for storing datas, even hardware engineers also uses binary value system for their transistors, e.g. 5 volt = binary value "1" in a bit. lol. so without the binary value system, we will lack of technology in the world, thinking a time that we live without handphone, air-con, computers, televisions and etc etc... n most of our technologies used in our daily life nowadays are computers because they have a processor in it!

n well my eyes are @_@ although i dont feel like sleeping because i m used to sleep late lol. so what should i do now? thinking of skipping lectures till 1 pm then go school, but well 9 am have CMaths2 enrichment talk which gives us some donoe wadever point lol. so i think i better not skip it :(

WANTED. RELEASED TODAY! i want to watch...HANCOCK is another movie i think which is nice too. http://sg.movies.yahoo.com/It looks kinda funny too. n dont ever watch 21 because DVD rip off version is already available for download through internet (i know it's warez n i m breaking my 10 commandments lolol) but well why spend money when u can catch a same quality movie without spending money lol.

李圣杰 - 眼底星空

你好喜欢看我眼睛
你说是宇宙的缩影
只要没有分离 天气晴 能看见星星
我努力爱你宠你调整自己

我是邻居还是伴侣
时间带来残忍结局
在爱情的隔壁 住友情 界线太锐利
对不起 就一刀切开所有亲密

眼底星空 流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
转过身跌入黑洞
看着天长地久变两种漂泊
男人流泪比流血加倍心痛

眼底星空 流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔
有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱 听雨吹风

用三年去维系感情
用三秒钟结束关系
剩回忆能回去 能温习 能把你抱紧
就算爱烧成灰烬 扬起变乌云

眼底星空 流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
转过身跌入黑洞
看着天长地久变两种漂泊
男人流泪比流血加倍心痛

眼底星空 流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔
有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱 听雨吹风
谢谢他给你　给爱另一个星空

this song is nice. poetic. how he express his relationship n his feeling, i like it. the way he sing the song is quite emo and faithful to the girl he like. in ktv this is one of the song i like most to sing hahahaha.

WHAT CAN I SAY? I M NOW OFFICIALLY 18 YEARS OLD!

tomorrow, or soon my birthday is coming. didn't get excited about it but i am disappointed about it. because this is like 1st time in my life on my birthday and i have school on -.- n it's very demoralising to have your birthday on the first day of school re-open. n i still havent touch my CCNA academy studies nor the projects i need to pass up on late july n etc.

n especially tomorrow i have lessons till 6 pm n need to stay back after that for CARC project discussion with my group members. so i m kinda sad about tomorrow n that's why i dont have any mood to really celebrate my 18th birthday -.-

incredible tales soon @ 10 pm! i missed the last 2 episode n this episode i dont want to miss it again. n what do the texts on my monitor screen now looks so weird? is it my eyes or the font i m using? @_@ some letters automatically move/change by itself after i typed something.

n now i shall wish myself happy birthday with an emo song...

dumb yong chuan broke my zeus egg score in draft with his cmi potm. he deserves to ban himself to use potm in draft. now i finally lost 1 round using zeus in draft, thd too, 1 lose currently. however my zeus is like play more than 10 rounds of draft compared to thd around 5 rounds.

now i m feeling hungry @_@ but there isnt any food instead of instant packet noodle which is so troublesome to cook zzz.

DONT MESS WITH THE ZOHAN, nobody wan watch tomorrow? zzz.

recently been listening to jay zhou song again. no idea why but maybe all the songs i heard gets kinda bored to me now. one of the song i recently keep listening to is the song i currently playing on my blog. i like the music n lyrics, peaceful n beautifulness comes into my mind when i heard them. the instructmental musics is nice.

hmm.. the song is about admiring a girl hair that is so beautiful. to me a beautiful hair will be just natural colour, long hair. i dont really like dyed hair because the hair doesnt looks natural anymore, n seriously i think melissa, a P6 classmate of mine told me that i like long hair girls n i think she's damn right about it rofl.

well girls without long hair dont even looks like girl, that's what i think. n i remember mathew also agreed with me or something like that.

`*one gh _ x ツ I Will Nv Save Ky Ever Again says (5:16 AM):
rmb i wont save u anymore

n well gao hui been a loser because my tormented soul dont wan to save his potm in the last draft match i played when he got ganged up by 3 stunners n i left without helping him stun so he could leap away n now he's so petty about it. n i dont wanna die because those gay bad-mannered opponents keep aiming my tormented soul that i couldnt farm n die a few times tanking attacks and luring them. eventually we still won and we bad-mannered them like the them, especially the rogue knight starting been a retarded keep capping n say to all "HUAT AH ZEUS" when both of them at mid lane -.- and yong chuan is the zeus. haha so we won n all of us say "HUAT AH" hahahaha, kinda retarded + nub opponents -.- n those who call me "slave" hero users, u all better remember yr words cuz next time i use supporter heroes i wont let u all farm nor help le, i will go engage ok? call me supporter user n then i will give support hahaha.

ok ju xian told me he left comment for my post few days ago n now i finally found it, i thought he was lying to me first n well but who knows that someone will really use the comment instead of the tagbox for commenting. rofl.

11/06

woke up around 12 pm. went to gym with jr n gh at around 2 pm. jr was teaching me how to do according to build my muscles LOL and those stationary how to do. so i was doing till my hand were feel so heavy. ok i admit i m weak, but well i dont go to gym that often. n this is my 2nd time going. i remember that i m weak till eventually i lost to a girl call yanling in nan chiau on arm wrestling at sec 1. i cant forget LOL n i remember she said she got go to gym n show me her muscle n it was bigger than mine alot LOL, well she is older than me by 1 years old though. so i think i need to go gym more laaaaaaa......

then we do till like 3 pm + then we went hougang plaza downstair eat chicken rice. i eat so much n jr didnt expect me to eat finish cuz i ordered like freaking large. i was so full after that. then we went home.

reached home then went to bed till like 7 pm. cab to serangoon garden around 7.25 pm to meet richmond, karsan n weikang. many of them pang seh us la, say wan go in the end keep delay delay then we wait till like 9 pm they say dont wan come. i didnt have my dinner cuz i was still full after eating chicken rice so i just went there to slack n drink coffee bean. then after that i n richmond took bus 73 n 109 home while the other 2 cabbed to hougang. think i have been quite no life for the past few days staying at home dota-ing all the time since sunday. especially can say saturday since it's also dota-ing but just not at home but at jr house haha.

ok basically i lied on my bed for like almost 2 hours or so, since 4.30 am i have been trying to sleep but i just cant sleep. probably it's the effect after drinking mocha ice blended. my body is feeling aches now after the gym. n later i need to wake up around 1 pm @_@ n 2 pm i need to go gao hui house to put my laptop there since at night we will be having dota marathon. n then incredible hulk later @ the cathay so need to book ticket early since later is the official open date of the movie. n now i can't get to sleep, donoe what will happen later to me. probably too tired. i m freezing due to the air con now n i think i need to afk my desktop now n run song to make me sleep. ok so i going to sleep now, i yawn too much now but i cant get to sleep, everytime i yawn i m feeling aches on my shoulder and hand muscle. my hands are so freaking heavy. n gao hui say without good sleep the muscle wont grow :(

think dota-ing is the only thing that could let me temporary stop thinking of anything n concentrate on it while playing. if not every second i would be thinking of something..... those stress n emo feeling comes...

wow raining heavily with thunderstorm now. i love this kind of weather specially at night. good for sleeping, i love the sound of rainfalls n thunderstorm. the cooling breeze is nice toooooo.

how i hope that i can play in the rain n stand in the middle of rain n bath on it (since i still havent bath) but no one pei me zzzzzz.

车子里收音机空气中还飘着雨
在这个深夜里你应该在他那里
有多久没再遇见你
房里没了你的气息
而我终于扔掉了你给我的所有东西

我可以填满了生活里每寸空隙
我知道不容易但我仍试着继续
听说你比从前开心
我还能有怎样的情绪
除了祝福我不想再多说一句

他很好他多好
这些我并不想要知道
再难忘掉多狂烈的拥抱
这回忆他怎么给的到
他多好
和我不同的好
最后是谁不重要
因为我知道
爱情不能做比较

就算是今天换一个人依靠
明天谁又比谁好
爱看不到听不到怎么做比较

别再说他很好他多好
这些我并不想要知道
再难忘掉多狂烈的拥抱
这回忆他怎么给的到
他多好
和我不同的好
最后是谁不重要
因为我知道
爱情不能做比较
希望你知道
爱情不能做比较

"爱看不到听不到怎么做比较" i very agree to this statement. love is just a feeling, which cannot be seen or heard, once u have the special feeling that it, you are in love. so how can u compare love right?

this song is nice. i prefer baby version than pin guan version, pin guan sing like no much feeling/emotion one.