Damn cute + clever chimp. I want to adopt a cat & a dog for accompanionship! They are so cute but sadly my parents don't like pets because they think that pets are troublesome & dirties -.-

09/09

Had 5A class chalet during that day. Susposedly to meet jr they all at CP to go downtown east together. However cheukman jio me go buy martell with him, so went CP to meet cheukman & shi min to go eat lunch together at yoshinoya, then after that me and cm took train to kovan to buy martell at some deserted place. $75, kinda cheap.

Then we took bus 53 or something one to Pasir Ris town park, and we walked quite a distance to the chalet. Then at there the 1st thing I did was play Uno Stacko with cheukman and deon, we played 2 rounds, 1st round I lose very fast because I don't know how to play LOL, my 1st time playing and I was so suay keep rolling till Draw Two. 2nd time I play I eventually survived till very long, but I still lose because they are just freaking tyco.

Then after playing uno stacko, watch the channel 8 drama 7 pm one till 8 pm. Then went to BBQ pit there and kapo people food, I don't cook at all (although last time when working in raffles hotel I am forced to do BBQ stuffs most of the time). Thanks to jr keep helping me BBQ those stuffs like chicken wings, hotdogs and crabstick hahaha. Then wei jie for BBQ the stingray for me hahaha.

Then at there watch hexun, wei pin, cheukman, hoong chun & wei hang play monopoly. They play quite long sia, 2 hours like that. Then all of us is like keep wanting to see hoong chun lose only. Although hexun is the first one who surrender himself because he doesn't have much property and much $ left, self-declared bankrupt. What a loser, wei hang with also 2 properties still can survive till very long.

Went E-Hub around 11.30 pm + like that to see if is there anything to play with cheukman mathew, vala & hexun. But sadly there isn't anything beside movie, but none of them are interested and ben & mathew keep want K-box but I kinda sian of K-box, my excuses was "WITH MAT? NO THANKS" hahahaha. Because mathew always di siao me one lor then I di siao him back he sian diao LOL.

Then we back to chalet after that, watched the movie that I rented for free during CP, The Exorcist one what la, the movie is kinda nice. They said it's a real story. @_@ wah like that demon own the father of the church, strong demons. The movie lasted for 2 hours like that, kinda long.

Then after that went to drink abit of martell with cheukman, mathew and jianrong. Me and cheukman join wei hang group they all play Uno cards, I played 1 round only though and the round was seriously kinda long. I can won quite a few times but everytime before I could win, wei hang is my obstacle keep sabotage me with his draw four or skip or reverse. I sibei sian sia. Then eventually I am the 4th to clear my decks la lol, can 1st one lor hahaha but wei hang sabotage..

Then went to Pasir Ris Park with jian rong, because the others don't want. So only we 2 walk till the end of Pasir Ris Park chatting about Yang Cheng Lin & Zhou Jie Lun & some other english songs of his which I told him I dislike those kind of songs. Then we discussed about our examination result and how we are at primary school and I told him how demoralised I am during my PSLE result, I thought I am always an average student but end up I getting into NA and that's when I gave up working hard. Yeah I know I deserve getting into NA because I was slacking since P5, I don't really pay attention in class and start to be lazy by not doing my homework and so. And PSLE I don't even study at all and totally unprepared, I don't even know that day was PSLE exams lol.

Then after the long walk, we went back to Downtown Macdonald and saw Gao hui, yong chuan, wei jie and deon playing Monopoly. yc at there extra be banker LOL, then wei jie at there emo because he's the 1st guy to lose. Then eventually Gao Hui is the champion la, because he's tyco. Then it's almost 7 am like that in the morning liao then we decided to go off first to home to sleep since there's bus le.

Reached home around 8 am then went to bathe and so then sleep at around 10 am.

10/09

Woke up around 4.30 pm & the first thing I woke up was seeing my phone was flooded with messages, most of them are school matters. One SIG student likes to flood our phone with 4 messages as always, he keep message me to remind us about the hacking workshop which susposedly to be 6 pm. Then I saw some sms from school about my exam result, I was shocked & didn't expect to get my result on 10th, which is a day earlier. Lol, I felt kinda shocked & disappointed when I saw the 1st 2 result, B+ then C+. Then I went to see the subject, BITS: B+, I am seriously SHOCKED! HOW THE HELL I GET B+ WHEN THE PAPERS ARE THAT DAMN EASY THAT I CAN SCORE FULL MARKS!! THE MOST CONFIDENCE PAPER I HAVE I SCORED B+? Probably it was due to my projects, I completed it in last minute and didn't put in much effort in doing my project lol. Then C+ for communication skill, I was glad, phew luckily not others subject because I expected my communication skill getting a lousy result, I am glad even with a D for that subject lol. Then I read further down my results, I was kinda shock too. Because I scored 2 Zs, 3 As. One Z was very expected, PRSP, java programming. And another Z was CARC, I totally unexpected about that because I thought my project was like also anyhow do LOL. And not only that, during examination because it was a night time and during that day for some reason I am just hell tiring, my brain couldn't work properly during that day. During paper I was like @_@ because it was abit hard, and I forgot how to do one question which consists of like 6 marks or so lol. And my DCNK I scored A for that, I am like HOW THE HELL I SCORED A? LOL. Even my classmates & lecturer is shocked that I scored A although the china guy in my class sabotage me to do sucky for my practical lab test lol. My lecturer eventually said that I did very good for my papers so I scored A, but my project isn't up to standard from my view, again I didn't put in any efforts in doing my projects LOL. CMaths1 & 2 I scored A, hahaha. Althought I keep skipping most of the lessons for the 2 Maths, I am able to score A. That's because I got some advantages by taking A Maths during Secondary School & those some other never learn before Maths topics can be easily learn by self by reading the lecture book and reading some examples.

Then went online to check for my GPA, I scored 3.79 for my 7 subjects GPA. Quite happy for it, because I asked my other classmates about their GPA too, The best one is 3.71, haha. So I guess I am the top in my class? However during hacking workshop I was told that there's a guy who scored all Zs LOL, hahaha. Probably if I put in a huge amount of effort to study instead of playing everyday and study on last minute, I could get the same result but I don't want to be that because I am totally lazy -.-

My lecturer said that he know that I did well for my examination because he saw my name in some top 10% name list, no idea what list is that. Hope it's director list, if that's the case I most likely to be able to go for diploma plus certificate.

The hacking workshop was seriously kinda crappy, because I got so confused and absolutely no idea how to use VMWare LOL, even the external lecturer goes there to teach us also don't know how to use VMWare LOL. Then I couldn't even put a tool file into my VMWare to run, and got different demo files from others. Therefore I can't catch up during that workshop at all -.-

11/09

Susposedly to wake up to ask say kiat and shengkai to go somewhere opposite of saykiat house there to buy bicycle for ourselves for night ridings, but all of us woke up kinda late so we didn't went out at all lol. Then stayed home for the rest of the days -.- And good luck to jordon for his 1st day of NS although I didn't manage have the time to meet him on before he went to camp because I am cropped up with stuffs.

12/09

Totally a boring day, staying at home doing nothing beside listening to songs. Hope that tomorrow they seriously plan to go Sentosa or what lol. If not I am going to be boring staying at home sleep, watch TV, online, eat, listening to songs again.

http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XNDIwMDcxMDA=.html

不良笑花 01

FIRST EPISODE. Waited quite long for this drama le. I going to watch it now and then I shall sleep.

我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

Is that really the only way out for me?

07/09

Played Mahjong with jeremy and katie at viwawa. Then went to watch Channel 8 Naked Weapon, the movie is kinda nice. Then played a round of dota. Life is so boring and meaningless, nothing to do at all. What we do mostly is just study and study and study, stresses comes in all the time. Then after studying, we don't even get to enjoy, mostly is then working or so. And if no work, then it's staying at home boring-ness. Sleep, eat, online, watch TV. Nothing else to do, life is simple....AND BORING AND MEANINGLESS.

And this is seriously sucks, because they expect us to go back to NTU for another seminar talk, why don't they just freaking end it on that session yesterday. They are freaking dumb, senseless, inconsiderate. Don't they know that how troublesome is it for some people like me and wei lin to travel there. It's almost an 1 hour 30 minutes trip to there -.- I wonder how will my 2nd brother going to survive after his army. Because he is getting to NTU business school, Nanyang Business School (NBS) after his army. His seat there is already secured because he recieved letter to go for interview there and got selected. He is been that so retard to go into some mechantronics course in TP with his L1R4 8 points, why go for a 2X course in poly lol. He seriously regretted that he nows jump to business -.-

Although now the talk is during night time, that's why it's worst. Because it's 10th September, and I need to go back to TP for intermediate hacking workshop at 7 pm - 9 pm. So it crashes into my timetable. And no way I am giving up my hacking workshop. So no I am not going for that seminar talk, sorry wei lin that I can't make it during that day lol. Oh yea and the stock market challenge stimulated game is going to start at monday -.-

Talking back bout university, I still haven't make up my mind whether if I want to go for degree studies after my army. Because I would most likely to lose my interest on study & study. It's basically too time wasting for my course on university, computer science. And after army I already wasted another 2 years + It's so unfair for males to go into army. I shall see if I am given opportunity in my industry after my army, and in IT industry, going to university is not really needed. Getting certificates like Cisco Networking Certs, Red Hat Certified Technician and so, it's more useful than a degree. Afterall my german friend already said computer science is more like wanting us to find a way to prove P = NP. Oh well many great matheticians already can't solve that now, and who am I to solve that -.- I can't be that lucky to get that 7 million nobel prize to solve that. I might consider of going to Australia to study my computer science degree after my army probably, since it's just 1 more year of studying if my GPA is > 3.0 which is possible for me lol.

So tired...Think I shall sleep now. And best if I can't wake up, I would wish to get stuck in my dream forever. No matter whether it's a good or bad dream, just let me die while in my dream so I don't have to suffer in this meaningless world.

06/09

Eventually I didn't sleep much before going to NTU, I fell asleep around 5.15 am or 5.20 am finally, however wei lin rang my home phone on 5.29 am lol, so I think I slept for like 10 mins only before going to NTU.

Then around 6.30 am wei lin rang me again, I fell asleep at my sofa, my mind was totally a blank of don't know what happened, then I suddenly remember I was susposedly to go out at 6.30 am to CP to meet wei lin.

After that rush to CP to meet wei lin. Then zhun zhun when I reached MRT just arrived so we chiong all the way for MRT then. Then after that took MRT to outram park and change to green line to boon lay. I didn't fell asleep at all at MRT while wei lin did, I slept hell lot lesser than him lol. We reached there quite early so had my breakfast at jurong point macdonald. Oh anyway this is the first time I went to Boon Lay lol, I never even go there once in my life.

Then after that we took bus 173 or something to NTU, NTU is seriously big. It's like 6x the size of SP or something like that, think got like half or 3/4 of the size of botanic garden or so. Even all the polys add up together also not bigger than that. NTU facilities and place is all so nice and neat, even the whole place looks so grand.

Then around 8.30 am we reached the Auditorium hall then we at there register our attendance, then took our goodies bag and signed up for some OCBC Young Investor Pack. Then went into the big hall and sat down. Seriously I am pretty mad because I didn't sleep much as the time states 9 am, but the talk starts at 10 am, and those talks are lame, useless, time-wasting and so. Till like 12 pm then is the real important talk, and the talk is like 1/2 hour. The guy presentation skill is not good at all, making me feeling kinda asleep (especially when I didn't sleep like for so long). The talks I also don't understand most of the definitions and so, the talk is more like for those ametuars that had studied Business before. And even wei lin study in Accountancy in NP also couldn't understand the talk.


However finally got know to what the stocks are all about, those fundamental analysis and Graph Statistic Analysis, isn't that some common sense ideas that I got it long ago and I already knew -.- Only 1/2 of the parts are those definitions part that are kinda new to me. However the sucks most is still that they give some some booklet and expect us to read @_@. It's so thick with like 300 + pages on one particular stock booklet. And I don't even feel like reading the thick booklet.

The talks end at 12.30 pm like that then I and wei lin took bus 173 back to Jurong Point and had our lunch at MOS burger. Then took train home, I didn't fell asleep for all the way till the way back home, not even in the hall. Only when train back to Dhoby Ghaut and Sengkang I fell asleep. However luckily I was awake on Dhoby Ghaut if not we are going to spend more time travelling back. Then on Sengkang Wei Lin woke me up.

Then reached home like 3 pm, then went online for awhile then sleep till 8 pm, had my dinner and did like nothing.

Just reached home awhile ago..

Went to CP just now around 6 pm with karsan to meet richmond, then had our dinner at KFC. Then took bus 89 to downtown east for shengkai chalet which susposedly for his birthday but it was an earlier celebration.

Then at there slack and slack and slack only, watching TV and walk around slacking. They having BBQ but didn't eat much beside eating 1 prawn and 2 hot dogs only. And the prawn is wei kang peel the shells for me one.

Then went home at around 11.30 pm, because wei lin just reminded me of going to NTU later on for the seminar talk on some OCBC organised game about stock or what one. Yeah I joined the game with him, so we going to meet later at 6.30 am to take train and bus to there, going to be a long trip there and the seminar starts at 8.45 am.

Then after that maybe going home and get some sleep then go back to chalet, didn't get to drink any liquor just cuz don't feel like drinking at all. I don't want to use liquor to kill my emo because that won't help at all, it's just delaying the effect, afterall I later still need go for seminar talk so it's seriously a no.

Ok now going to do stuffs like bathing and so.

05/09

Then went home and played wolfteam awhile alone with publics. Kinda abit sian because of laggers then went to play viwawa with benjamin, saykiat and meiyun. Won quite many rounds and got one round benjamin purposely feed me with wang zi then I won with 10 tiles LOL. Sibei happy that I at there keep laughning then my parents heard me laugh so loud and asked me what happened.

Tried cheating on viwawa mahjong game, but they have good programmers to put checks on their game that prevent game cheating lol so this game much more like unable to cheat because there aren't any flaws. Then left ben and me playing Chinese Chess, he fan sui 2 times let me win once and let me draw LOL when he should have won 3 times LOL. Well my chinese chess skills are kinda rusty, very long never play liao and I don't like the viwawa chinese chess. Hard to see and differentiate @_@, I prefer the one with the chinese word on it.

Then now going to play dai dee, big 2.5 with xiaoben soon. Later still need to go eat breakfast with him. I somehow sian of dota nowadays, no feeling to play at all. No idea why, maybe I can't put in anymore effort in playing dota because it's just sibei sian game. And this few days I just can't get totally over it, because I know that I still like her and I don't know how to find a reason to stop that feeling, but I will try my best, my heart is still feeling sour every moment but this few days I never think of her much le, so that's a good start.

Good luck to me, I going to play with xiaoben big 2.5 now. Till morning after have breakfast then sleep then go shengkai chalet for his birthday which should be 19th september, but postponed to tomorrow because jordon going to army soon. And well I am now thinking of going clubbing, age 18 one with shengkai le, to get over my feeling and since shengkai is a fan of clubbing, so I bet he would want go and I can accompany him now and since I have nothing to do at home, although I don't like clubbing but I will try to adapt to it lol. Probably I don't have "zi ai" ba, the things I don't like I still go do haha, just making myself suffer for nothing. Or maybe I am crazy afterall.

Oh and jr was writing chinese word, that reminds me something. I had a dream yesterday that I am still doing for my O level LOL, and it's chinese. In some mystery places, like the sewer laboratory in DMC 4 LOL. But it's realistic place since it's a dream. Then we have our O level exam at there, and I purposely don't want to give a shit on that paper, I at there and anyhow write answer and throw the exam paper to Guo Lao Shi face because she kpkb me for not been serious for my paper, that's totally how I am last year for O level chinese too. I then told her "I am already happy with my C6 for the 1st try, I don't want to go for 2nd attempt because I know I sure fail and I now fail for you to see" LOL, something like that my dream. Afterwards it's a more weird dream, I dreamt that suddenly for no reason, I was taking some bus at don't know where also, then the bus was like crashed on something and I fainted, then when I wake up, everyone died and there's like zombies everywhere. Sounds so like resident evil HAHAHA. Then I dreamt of myself to be some zombies hunter and go hunt those zombies to slay on LOL. And those zombies are like free frag to me, well I know blade trinity was shown on channel 5 few days ago but I didn't watch much because I was playing Wolfteam while my brother and dad was watching on the living room. And I can't avoid seeing because my laptop is at my kitchen table which is beside the living room, and the plasma TV is so big LOL, so I did watch abit.

And talking back about the zombie dream, I forgot what happened in the end but I remember it's just totally like a zombie slaying game where I am the good guy, a zombie slayer using some powerful fist instead of weapons LOL. And I kill them with my godly scratch, and somehow I am an invulnerable godly guy because I got bite a few time but I feel like those zombie are tickling my necks and don't evolve to zombie LOL, I am basically god! It's a strange dream but I like it since I get excited when I am in my dream, excited where I need to slay those zombies LOL.

Ok I shall go play dai dee with ben now, I keep him waiting quite long when I blogging LOL.

Haha and talking about raining on levina blog, I remember when I am still a small kids, like 6 - 8 years old, can't remember how old, when I am still living in my old apartment at tampines (yea quite near TP :( so it's kinda a waste that I don't stay there if not I can travel or walk to school everyday lol) I and my brother was waiting at a bus stop for my mom when it was raining so heavily, my mom was susposedly to bring me and my bro on an occasion trip to KFC to eat (you know when we are small kids our favourites are those fast food restaurant foods lol) then in the end while waiting, I and my brother was playing in the rain then both of us got ourself so wet up, in the end my mother was so angry with the both of us that she cancelled the KFC trip and I was at there crying for KFC LOL (haha I am a known-crybaby to my family till the age of 12 like that LOL) and in the end although I cry, she still didn't bring me to KFC to eat LOL. But since secondary school, everyday after school was like FAST FOOD at Compass Point, I can remember the very regular us at sec 1 & 2 were Xie Chao, Jeremy, Yin Jie, Chuekman, Wei Lin, Valentino, Jing Yuan and so we will always go CP almost daily after school to have our lunch at Yoshinoya(mostly with xie chao, jeremy and yin jie lol)/KFC/Burger King/Macdonald/Pizza Hut (mostly with xie chao, yin jie & jeremy also). Yeah we the "5566" always go CP and eat together one, thinking back it makes me feel so nostalgic about that time, and the 5566 are me, jeremy, xie chao, yinjie and forgot who liao la, think is chuekman or what. Then we all siao siao liao keep making every of us in class become a singer name, I am the xie zhi in 5566 LOL and then Xie Chao is Xiao Dao and jeremy is wang ren fu and the other 2 I forgot what name liao because I don't know 5566 name. Then Valentino also say himself as Pan Wei Bo LOL!! So maybe at that time Katie likes Valentino because he's Pan Wei Bo? LOL. We were really mad about that time telling those teachers about we are blablabla singer and those feng shui stuffs, even raffi also play along with us LOL.

Sadly raffi failed to get permission to let 2B to be together at sec 3 and so. Then sec 3 - 5 alot of things changed, didn't go CP as much as we were at sec 1 & 2 haha. And now got kinda sick of those fast food restaurants.

04/09

Stayed at home whole day playing games. Then around 9 pm went to serangoon garden just to drink one mocha ice blended and went slacking with jordon, karsan, arian, saykiat and richmond since they at lanshop playing dota. Then we took bus 315 then 43 to buangkok and eat while saykiat pang seh us go home. Then some of them had their dinner there while I at there just sit down slack slack and slack. Then walked home with karsan again like the midnight today. Then the 3 of them took cab home and jordon went arian house.

Went home and it's around 12 am ++ le lol...

And now I am just back from my supper. It's so freaking boring, me, karsan and saykiat at there slack kinda long. BORING + BORING + BORING, still BORING!!

Ate quite alot la just now, damn hungry. Now I think I am kinda tired and I shall wash my face and then go sleep soon.

Damn no life these few days, keep staying home to play games and learning abit of reversing stuff to crack programs. Keep cracking a few of tutorials program already and it's kinda easy lol.

Now feeling god damn hungry, I shall go out for supper at buangkok with say kiat. BBL!

I am not that sad afterall with the answer. I am feeling abit happy that I have clear everything in me and I can start afresh now. Haha I am not sad thanks to some people like katie, jian rong, deon, yong chuan and gao hui. I got distracted by playing mahjong at viwawa with katie and I seriously won 3x or 4x when playing with her hahaha. She only won once cuz I feed her with "Cai" LOL and her sister didn't win once LOL. Then she don't want play liao cuz I think she lose dao sian. Then I went playing with other players, and play the Sweat channel. Wah need 3/4 tiles to win and I sibei godly keep winning LOL. I play like 6 times altogether at 3 and 4 tiles mode, I won like 4/6 rounds LOL. Mostly are pong pong fu and pin fu hahaha. I think I damn pro and can be mahjong god soon HAHAHA.

Then played Wolfteam with jr they all, I keep owning lor. Then jr is food, some public dulan him hai us lose to gao hui deon n yong chuan cuz jr feed them scores LOL. Not only once but most of the rounds his frags are negative LOL. More deaths than kills, wad a feeder, free food.

Ok so now back to dota after 2 days of never play because was playing Wolfteam haha. So sian nowadays staying at home doing nothing...

And I shall not want to step into any situation like this anymore. I cut my heart once, and I don't dare to let it get another cut anymore... However I am still happy that I have one more friend now because she still treats me as a friend and so shall I.

I am as confused as this song... I sincerely hope that she will give me an answer... I just want an answer no matter what the answer will be...

我掉进爱情悬崖
跌太深爬不出来
下降的速度太快
来不及踏上未来
妳的爱反复徘徊
打乱我呼吸节拍
该怎么逃开 我控制不来

我掉进爱情悬崖
回想起妳的可爱
傻傻的还在等待
以为妳还会回来
妳的脸慢慢离开
时间快将我掩埋
消失的太快 我负荷不来

I am trapped there now, so I want to get out of there with just an answer from her... :( I want to stop feeling restricted and confusing, that message will be the one that decides it. For that I can't get to bed for the whole night, and these few days I can't sleep well because I keep getting confused every night...

As time goes by...I feeling getting crazier and crazier due to that. This is the 1st time I am like this and I don't know why. She's the only girl who could do that to me, and I never ever felt like this before. I don't know why and I am really confused...

Now I don't think anyone can understand what I am feeling right now totally, they aren't me and they won't know... Only I know that I am feeling very messed up now. I am totally awake clearly and I know what I am doing and thinking now... I never like someone till like this... And I don't know why. I think it's the maximum stage of liking someone or so..

I think I can just forget about sleeping for today because I can't even get to bed...